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If you're going to cry just let it out. Tell some oen about it. Don't keep your feelings in. It's torture. .-. I would cry all the time but i keep my feelings locked up. Not very often do i let my feelings out .-. I put on a happy face. Inside i feel like clawing my eyes out. I seem hyper and happy but im not. People...People talk to me about things that they don't even trust their best friends with...I hate knowing so much stuff that i shouldn't. Mom asks me why i tear things up. Cause my personality. Thats all i can say. If i was upfront. You wouldn't like me. If i acted how i felt you would hate me. I seem like i cant say anything right. That's because im afraid to lose friends if i act the way i want. .-. I really want to act the way i feel but i don't. .-. My friends are the most impotant thing in the world to me. And ia dmit. Beinga good friend to people has made me lose many many many friends. Its not fun. I hate being friends with two people who hate each other. I feel like bashin both of their heads in with a baseball bat when they talk ab out each other...How many of you thought i was happy, when inside i felt like killing you >o> No im just kidding i would never truly wish death upon anyone. I hate it when people say they are ugly. Especially when they aren't. Here is how i would act if i acted like i feel: I would be quiet. I would be very more literate. I would be more organized. I would have better grades. -wipes face- and to those of you who are crying. Your not the only one. Just think about that...You are not the only one. >.>
I wish this one thing: That certain people would stop thinking they have it hard. me and other people have it much worse. Im going to stop right now or im going to start crying more...