Well, I guess this will be about just about anything that happens in my life. Not much to write but sooo much drama that it would be a great soap opera haha
Ahh
Well, it isn't exactly the twenty seventh yet but I'm already super depressed. Second month without him and yea I know i'm better without his a** around me but I mean a year and a half, he's going to have an affect on me.. I just wish I could be around friends or something to cheer me up. Maybe tomorrow will hold better things for me. Might go see the guys or something to try and make things better. But other than that tomorrow will be depressing and just a ******** my life time. If you feel like trying to be a good spirit and cheer me up that'd be pretty cool. If I'm online anyways, I'm going to try to do everything I can to keep myself preoccupied tomorrow haha. Well, hopefully things get better for me and I won't dream of him and wake up catching myself trying to text him and I won't wish he was holding me tightly as I sleep for he is with his new girlfriend right now holding her in his arms tonight as I sleep alone and wonder why he left me.. Guess I'm just not perfection which is what he wanted.. But ******** that. I am who I am now and if I look like a boy and have purple hair and dress like a dyke than so be it.. No one can stop me from things I want to do or how I look other than myself. No one else has control over me..