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You don't understand...

You don't understand how complicated love is...
You don't know how hurt I am...
You don't understand that long distance sucks...
and
You don't understand how much I really cared for you...

WE had our On's and Off's It wasn't easy dealing with our problems
and talking things out together...
I need time to get over you and I'm still in process
I Hate You but there are still leftover bits of feelings that I can't clean up
I WANT to HATE YOU...
I knew you would've hurt me...but I still continue to believe we could do better
Then times I doubt it because I'm so insecure that I'll lose you...

I Loved You...and all those moments of doubts and signs I should've stuck with my gut feeling.
You avoided me and never wanted to talk...
You accusing me of cheating just to put the blame on someone else cause "You Know You're Guilty".

I shouldn't have given you chances and I should have just stop it at the first break up.
You weren't ready for "Us" in the beginning...
I Hate How Far We've Gone Trying to Make Things Work...
You don't understand how I was hoping you'd come live with me like your first trip when you wanted to stay.
When you asked if I was willing to put up with you and be committed, I looked into your eyes and said Yes. I want to be your wifey...
but if putting up with you and your dirty lil secrets behind my back flirting with other ********' dumbass whores...Then thats not right...

I'm Loyal,Honest,Trustworthy,and Willing to Forgive you in the past...
But Now...You've done me wrong so many times its not worth being with you.
You Just Don't Understand How Complicated It Was Loving You...