I keep getting told that I think differently. I fix problems my own way, wether it's logical or not. I think it comes from my parents. they both had a different way of doing things. My dad was pretty direct and my mom tried to be indirect. Both got results most of the time, except with me and the rest of my siblings. We fought it as hard as we could, but even we couldn't fight the worst of it most of the time. I fought dresses, personally. I also fought doing things I didn't want to do. Even now, I keep my saxophones just because I was forced into playing them... It feels odd and I've been scared the past few months because I finally can do things I want to do. I still feel that I should have someone to depend on for their wants, simply because it scares me to think only my wants are important. I don't like that. I even feel like there isn't anything I want sometimes... Well, that's not true, there is something I want. But I'm too logical to just take it. I have to wait. And I'm only hoping I'll be patient enough to hold out... I just hope he comes for me soon.
I miss you, Daddy.
Nik_Eighteen Souls United Community Member 
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