__________________WARNING; extremely sad.....________________________
It's taken me nearly 3 years to speak some what openly about this, yet I feel as upset and fuc#ed up as the moment happened. In 2008, a week after Mother's Day, I lost my closest friend ( I knew her since birth) to a drunk driver. I was riding home with her after a day of fun, I sat behind the driver and she sat behind the front passenger. We were crossing an intersection when her side got t-boned.....We were just in the middle of telling her parents we wanted to date each other. She died instantly, while I sustained a concussion, deep cuts from the glass, and many other injuries that keep me in the hospital in ICU for a month, and then another two months healing and two more in rehabilitation. I missed the burial, but had to indure the trial to give justice to the guy who took my almost girlfriend and her mother away from everyone who loved them. He was put away and for a long time. It took me over a year to post that twilight themed song, for she would of loved to see the movies & how people would of liked her song.
Everyday I am reminded of her with every time I look at the mirror, every ache from my damaged body, and every sucky trailer from that god awful movie series. I was about 13 when the accident happened, and had to face the adult problems. I did for the longest time think about ending it, but thanks to many good people in my life, I got better.
As of now, I have scars and a limp, yet I'm not even 18. I play baseball and do go play paintball with friends ( both activities she liked to watch), and every Twilight movie I see it opening night with a group of her friends. I buy her ticket and have a seat saved for her.I go on here only because she told me about how she liked it. I don't know if I will get over her, or ever be in a relationship for long periods of time.
I honestly don't know how to end this, but anyone who is feeling like the world is ending, just know it gets better and I care for you. I may not know you,but everyone needs someone there to help them through hell.
 Tahpsfan · Mon May 14, 2012 @ 12:26am · 0 Comments |
