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I'm so confuised about it all! I'm tired of other guys hitting on me. I mean I like some of them just a little bit, but I know that I am absolutly head over heels in love with one very speicial guy. I know that I made a mistake with him and I am trying my hardest to see him again so that it will go back to the way it was. I knew that one day I was going to marry him without him even asking and I still want that. I miss him so much that it hurts. I have ever thing he's ever gotten me and there's no way that I could ever get over him. I love him so much. And I hope he reads this even if I have to tell him too, which I probibly will have to do, but I don't care. I love you. You are my best friend and the only guy who could hold this speacial place in my heart and I want you back in it. I feel like crying when I think of what happened and how stupid I was. And I'm crying now because I miss you so much and I want to see you badly. I really do love you and I don't think it would be possible for me to live without you being there in my life. You are the only one I care about and I want to be with you again. It is so hard waiting to see you again. But I know when we do see each other that it will be worth the wait because I will be in your arms and tell you that I love you and that I never want you to let me go. You truely are my insperation and my life and emotions. Without you I feel empty. I love you Joshua Kyle Garrett. And don't you ever forget it you big dummy smile