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Painful Departure
I hate to depart...
Why do I have to go?
I just go to where I want to be ... yet the fun is taken out of me...
I'm tired of doing things I never wanted to do.
It's already dumb enough that I have to follow their orders!
I don't understand...when will I understand?
When will they understand I'm not having fun...
I don't understand how their "fun and games" work at all...
I'm done being fake...being someone who I don't want to be or actually am supposed to be at all.
I just want to rest, stay in my bed and think of all my memories...being proud of what I have done so far in my life.
But no...they won't let me...
All they ever did was drag me where they want me to be...some elderly loving people they are...
They never truly understand how it feels...it be locked up and never for once been able to relax.
You can say that I feel stressed even though...it is supposed to be my "summer" but explain...will my summer ever be free? Will I ever get the fun and relaxation that I deserve?
I already get homesick just to leave to a place I don't really want to go.
They think they understand...but they really don't, their blind.
Expecting me to be thinking I'm together with them on this...never...never will I be one of them!
I've been in the dark for too long...
-Snow that flutters down like feathers