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Clearly hes trolling,
hes trolling me,
he has no true emotions
all of this commotion
is just a figure of speech.

He doesn't really care
He never did,
shes just trolling
she has no motive
She does it for fun.

Braking my back
In an attempt
to sure him
I really care but

Clearly hes trolling,
hes trolling me,
he has no true emotions
all of this commotion
is just a figure of speech.

It looks like we're going to war,
i dont know, how to fight.
Something i cant touch.
It can fly so high,
but im stuck on the floor.
I dont know, i dont care.
I just i need to get out alive.
I dont know where, to turn to survive.
I need to get out alive.

i keep fighting, to hold back these tears
i dont know what im doing here.
i keep feel like i am dying. How much more
s**t can i take. Where is the line and when will
it break.

Im breaking apart, im not far off
from losing my heart.
I cant see straight anymore,
my life keeps sinking more and more.


I miss my father, i miss my bros.
And my sisters are acting like ******** hoes.
My mother is a friggen b***h, she should of just
killed me in a ditch.

I give up i dont want to fight
i just want to go to sleep one night
and never get off that god damn flight.
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If this were a mario game,
this level would life would be played on
insane. And your lives would of been
minis 109. But I only got one life left
and i am on my internet Browser
and try to kill all of my Bowser.
******** princess Peach, im trying to
save myself.

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Im cutting, its stinging, im bleeding
my mind is spinning. I dont who im
kidding. Im not fine, im insane. I got
nobody left but i got a chain.

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if her age on the clock then she too young for the c**k and you're 12 sorry to tell you but this aint going to work
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my scars are hidden
but still there,
to hide the pain
my heart can not bear,
they show some times
but never seen
they hide from others
covered not to be seen
my heart cant take it
the pain of it all
so for now
end it all,
it's too long,
to much to bear
please end it now
for my hearts repair
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Everyone thinks they know you, they own you,
you can never be alone, you gotta let it go,
Be yourself, let it out, tell them all to just go home.

I daydream to my escape. To get away from this world into my own, where im not alone. to the land of my dream-scape.

My land of make believe. A land where lost friends and creatures in my dreams acompny me in the hardest of times.

But my dream-scape is at risk of darkness. My sanity is the last and only defence. The task to keep my head is too fat too hard. I want to soar the skies in my own heart buti have no wings to get there, basiclly trapped in my own demise.

I refused to be like the other children; i used to sing to myself; as comofrt, as hope, as joy and as faith. But here i fall. Im just another child in the crowd, with a mask instead of being an indivisual. I see people with emotion than i copy, but i all a little twist of the emotions i still, oh so faintly, feel. To be an inivisual is dangrous and risky, to disobey leadsto punishmeant and paint. to be smart and a hard worker leads to success and to gloory.

In my dream-scape; being weak is a gift. Being strong is a pleasure. Being smart is an extra. Being yourself is being a hero. Being an a*****e equals to being a zero.

In my dream-scape the oceans was once silver and now as i lose myself, there is nothing, the few puddles left are the colours of dried blood. The sky is falling apart, the color of pich-black, grains of the sky falls down below, just like snow, to the ground. Once was cute creatures, now disfigured and crazy. My dream-scape is dying as my insanity is living. The air slowly chokes you as you breathe in. hints of leafthful poison hangs in the air. The tree in the middle of my world, once so beaitful nothing could compare to it; the emeraled leaves with a plat of gold licking the edges, it would sparkle under the light of the sun and it would glow the colors of the rainbow in the moonlight; but now, a gloom of darkness surrounds it and kills all the plants and trees near. The hills are now the color of blood. Even at some areas thhe kills are slowing melting away leaving nothing but a blood-pool.

The harder i try to work hard i feel the sky break apart more, the sky is like my heart breaking apart. The hills are like my mind melting away, the oceans are like my will to fight; but im stuck in a fight every moment. My back is up against a wall while my oppment has a knife to my throat. But im not scared? Is this a sign of being brave, or truely starting to become insane.

Every night i look up towards the starry skies,
Wondering how many people before me have died.
Is freedom such a thing in the world we live?
If you have a little doubt,
then theres no way of getting out.
That doubt will tower over you,
Tending to kill you.

This better be a nightmare. I better be asleep
If im not asleep this slit upon my wrist will be a symbol of my pain I have obtained
I don't know if I can make it much longer in my depressive state I just gotta keep my head up straight
I am so scared of my surrounds I don't know where I am
When will this sadness start to fade away…

I need to know your there, I need to know where you are cause I keep staying awake.
If I could buy a plane ticket I would be straight there, if only fate was my bait I would of been there with you for four years straight.
Life is hard, we know this, better than anyone would know, that’s why our love is so strong.

When I say I love you I mean it, drunk; half awake and sober, you know its true cause you know it when you do it to.
When we say we do something we do it, we keep our words cause we know we can achieve those goals.
I love you --- and always will, so for the love of god say something!

[Intro]
These lies are my sister’s alibi; no one else can hear my cry,
But nobody else can't deny, that im still, scarred inside.

[Verse One]
Being sick and tired of always tryin’, nothing seems to satisfy,
Why do I always yell at night.
Happy families, are just fantasies, never existed,
Too far from realsitants, now watch me make a mother ******** resistance.
Mankind are far from fine…

[Chorus]
Were always fighting, someone’s dying,
Always crying, no more breathing, someone kill me, ******** this im leaving,
Nobody else is allowed to hear my grieving.

[Verse Two]
I guess time can really relate to a river, the flow of time,
Cause if you fall in your gonna drown then die, its over, your gone,
No one will know until a few months or so.
Everybody comes and goes, you find somebody you don't want to let go,
But then you fight, you have no right, then he ends up leaving you.
No one else can act like you, no one else can fill your shoes,
So you decide to keep fighting it through,
It is all, up to you.

[Chorus]
Were always fighting, someone’s dying,
Always crying, no more breathing, someone kill me, ******** this im leaving,
Nobody else is allowed to hear my grieving.

[Verse Three]
I look around at my house, no one even makes a sound. I feel so alone, now that she is gone.
I feel so dead, but im still breathing. I feel so cold, but im warm on the outside.
I always wear a mask, I feel like life is like a task, my mission is to surpass,
But im skunked way below; I don't think I can go on.
Everybody tells me to shut up, Everyone told me to look up,
Everybody says this, that, watch out, im going to have a spaze attack.

[Chorus]
Were always fighting, someone’s dying,
Always crying, no more breathing, someone kill me, ******** this im leaving,
Nobody else is allowed to hear my grieving.

[Verse Four]
Im done, I can't stand anymore, there’s always more, more, more and more,
More drama, more hitting, more sting, more pain,
no way, im sick of this bloody charade,
Please, no more friggin mind games, it doesn’t have to be this way,
We can blow it away; all you have to do is get out of your foolish ways.
Please, I want to get away, you will never change, you always lie,
We always fight, we’re gonna end up leaving you,
there’s nothing that you can do, we will never crawl back to you.

[Chorus]
Were always fighting, someone’s dying,
Always crying, no more breathing, someone kill me, ******** this im leaving,
Nobody else is allowed to hear my grieving. x2

[Verse One]
My mind is running slowly, im search for someone else,
Who understands me.
Why is their this pain all around me?
Im deafen by the silence, in the world I once called my own.
Can anyone hear this, cry?
Why am I still, alive?

[Chorus]
I feel like shouting, out, but the words, just won’t come out.
Im scared and cold and I don’t know here to, go.
I feel like im falling like a domino.
Someone here this cry and bring me back to life!

[Verse Two]
When will this all blow over, when will all of this end?
I need a signal, I can't see my life turn to this.
My life was just beginning, now I want it all to stop.
My head keeps spinning, im sick of seeing the docs.
In search for something, something to make me feel alive.
Why don't I remember , why can't I recall, how did all this happen, where do I begin.

[Chorus]
I feel like shouting, out, but the words, won’t come, out.
Im scared and cold and I don’t know here to, go.
I feel like im falling like a domino.
Someone here this cry and bring me back to life!
Someone here this cry and bring me back to life!

[Verse Three]
What is this feeling? Why do I feeling so alone?
There’s so many people around me, yet I still feel like no one quite understands.
I feel like running, but, my legs are stuck in place.
There are so many thoughts in my head, but I don't know how to let them out.
I feel like I keep complaining, but I barely say a word.
Once I start talking I tend to let it all out, why the hell can't I shut the f*** up.

[Chorus]
Someone please tell me im in a nightmare.
I don't know how to wake up.
I feel like shouting, out, but the words, won’t come, out.
Im scared and cold and I don’t know here to, go.
I feel like im falling like a domino.

[Verse Four]
Im still stuck in this nightmare, I don't know much more I can bare.
Everything is hurting, I just pretend that I don't care.
To the people who are so caring, its to late to save me now.
I am changing, into something bad without a doubt.
Im braking apart, but I keep it together.
I feel like crying, but I can't let it out.

[Chorus]
Someone please tell me im in a nightmare.
I don't know how to wake up.
I feel like shouting, out, but the words, won’t come, out.
Im scared and cold and I don’t know here to, go.
I feel like im falling like a domino.

[Verse Five]
People judge me, people that I don't even know.
Im sick of being that, little happy kid that everyone thinks they know.
Im tired of walking, walking this so called life.
I need to calm down, before I lose my mind.
My life is worthless, without having someone else.
This is my last cry, please just let me… die.

[Chorus]
Someone please tell me im in a nightmare.
I don't know how to wake up.
I feel like shouting, out, but the words, won’t come, out.
Im scared and cold and I don’t know here to, go.
I feel like im falling like a domino. [x2]

~Blood Life Death Fears Tears Sorrow.~
Blood, is such a beautiful thing, badness, when people begin,
to see it, as a symbol of death, yet again, death is not something i repent,
So, I, Might, Give, In, Some, Bliss, To, Demons, Of, Death.

People always comes and goes, this is the story of how life goes,
we're born, we live, then we die, i dont mind this, this is how everyone lies,

Life is a pleasure, Yeah Right, My life is a hell, my life is a shadow,
someone has cast some sorta spell.

Im stuck, in my moment of battle, why is there this knife to my neck?
Why arent i scared, Am i a fool? Or am i just brave?
Or even do i want it this way?

When. I. Fall. I. Fall. Alone.
When. I. Grive. Nobody. Knows.
When. I. Die. No. One. Cries.
This is my life. This is my strive.

Life is a struggle, Battle for breath.
There is always heartache stuck in my chest.

I dont see any point in living anymore
Who can i open up too? Who do i fully trust?
I have some many problems but i just shut up.

Im always tried, I always want to sleep. I want to fight but im giving it all my might,
to stay awake, to stay away, from the Repper of Death.
Where is my Guarding Angle, its never been there, unless its the Angle Of Death.

I want to cry but i dont see why, Arent i meant to hate myself passionaly?

I feel the Repper Of Death creeping up on me, Where can i hide, this thing has like a million eyes,
Seeking out for my blood and ties with a thousand lives.
At least i wont have to her any more lies, no more tears, no more fears, Why do i fight this?
It seems so right. Am i worried? Am i scared? Will i be missed? Or would no one give a s**t.

I opened my heart with arms out wide.
The day I met you was the I was going to take my own life.
I was always saying that the day will never come.
But personally I wish you would run into my arms.
Now you probably regret meting me that day.
But I wish that day never faded away.
My heart was always kept sealed away.
Until the day we our eyes connect.
My heart has been led astray.
Because of the moment I lost you on the way.
All I can do is hope and pray.
That we will met again some other day.
I wish the day was today.

I’ve often thought of suicide but now I have you by my side I really want to try.
But I know you would probably cried if I died.
You really love me? I really love you too.
I hope no matter what we do you’ll always be mine too.
I Hope you know my love is true cause I don't want to leave you feeling blue.
I know how much I love you know
Your all I have on my mind and one day someday I will make you forever mine.
That nightmare was all it was and won’t ever come to life.
I won’t hurt you cause you wont leave me cause the both of us could of hurt the other so much by this point.
You’ve change my world so much in a blink of an eye
That’s something I can not deny.
You made me see the world from its worse to its best by you saying one tiny word ‘Yes’
You don't know what you have done for me
You pushed me to my best.
You Must be an angle from above to shower me with care and love.
When im with you and I cry your always there to say ‘It’s alright’.
You have chased off all my fears and made you mine.
You have given my a life worthwhile
But seeing you smile makes me go viral.
You brought back my faith that was nearly lost.
My life is starting to turn into a dream come true
And it all started because of you.
I wish I could go on all day but im starting to run out of things to say
So I’ll finish with a line you already know
‘I love you’ more then I could ever show.
brief background about my gaia sister:

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My gaia sister was one of the only things that kept me going a few years ago, me and her were really close. She constantly got bullied and abused (psychically, mentally, verbally and sexually). She was really weak. But i always brought her up to the occasion and manged to make her happy like nobody else could. I loved my sister, a bit too much than a normal brother and sister would love one anyother, Not sexually though. Our bond was really strong. In the poem i said something about her saying yes, that was when she promised me that we'll be together for ever... that day was one of the happiest moments in my life... sometime later, she met a guy on here name Rupid or something. She told me that she already knew him in real life so i wasn't worried. But then she didn't come on for two weeks and i was getting extermly worried... i asked one of her friends if he knew where she was, he said that she went to meet rubpid in real life. Once i read that i packed my bags and brought a plane ticket to London... let me remind you, at the time; i was 12. I didn't know anywhere in London or where she would be, i just searched the outside areas of the city, and just my luck, i found my sister. After i dealt with rupid i got my sister wherever she wanted to go, until she was feeling better i went back to Austrailia. Two weeks after all this... she left me a video saying she loves me and always will and always will be with me and...well, she took her own life away on that video she sent to me... and she was smiling too as she said she loved me... so this poem is for my gaia sister...so no one else better take it, if you like it, PM me. and I'll send you a similar one to this... just dont take this one...