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((For this entry Im going to use real names, so no one get offended, k?))


What is your name?: Rika
Are you named after anyone?: My grandma's middle name.
What's your screename?: Digikid12346, LamentTheChaos, Zantiga
Would you name a child of yours after you?: Maybe, but I hate that whole "Lets name our baby after us because we are uncreative" thing.
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: If I could choose it would be Dante.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: No, I think people who do that are stuck up bastards.


Basics
Your gender: I am a female of...some species or other
Straight/Gay/Bi: straight as far as I know
Single?: Yes and I am kind of glad for it
Birthdate: October 7 1988
Your age: 16
Age you act: I think I act 16. Some people say older, some say younger.
Age you wish you were: Im fine being sixteen
Your height: around 5'9"
Your living arrangement: Oh you had to ask. I go back and forth between my moms house and my dads house.
Your family: I have a dad, a mom, a step mom, two half brothers, two half sisters, a bunch of step brothers and sisters, my grandmas, and my friends are like family to me too.
Obsessions?: Drawing, Writing, Anime.... Do the things I do because of my OCD count?
Addictions?: Shopping. Yes, shopping. Shut the hell up.
Do you speak another language?: Im a big nerd and I made up my own language which I can speak, Im ok at Al Bhed...kinda....(yes, I know it isn't a real language) and I can understand some spanish.
Have a favorite quote?: "I have not failed. I have simply found 10,000 ways that will not work." ~Thomas Edison (I think), "Don't burn your bridges"~ I donno.


Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: I try to. Mostly Im always worrying about my next step or not even here at all.
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: absolutely
Do you have any secrets?: A few
Do you hate yourself?: Not as much as I used to. In fact, not much at all.
Do you like your handwriting?: It depends on what day. Sometimes its nice and neat, sometimes its chickenscratch.
Do you have any bad habits?: I chew up pens and lock doors. Theres so many more, I just can't list them.
What is the compliment you get from most people?: Just the general "Youre so beautiful" from family and "Youre a great drawer!" from random people who see my drawings. I don't believe it.
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: On the Edge of Sanity.

Shtuff
What's your biggest fear?: being helpless, deep water.
Can you sing?: If by sing you mean wail like a banshee...
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: No. I like me.
Are you a loner?: I used to be, but now I need lots of attention, so no.
What are your #1 priorities in life?: My friends and Family. Anything to do with them.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: No, probably not. I do alot of things that would piss me off.
Are you a daredevil?: I wouldn't say Daredevil, but I am willing to do some pretty crazy stuff.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: My temper is a little...annoying.
Are you passive or agressive?: Agressive, but not physically unless you really push me to the point.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: Strength = My intelligence. You can always get where and what you want when you have the brains to work the situation.
Weakness = My bleeding heart. I can't just watch some one cry, no matter how much they deserve it.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: I'd be more willing to speak my mind to a boyfriend.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: I have grown stronger, but I could be so much more stable.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: Alot of things. But I don't dwell on them.
Do you think life has been good so far?: No. It has been a shithole. A flaming shithole. But its picking up.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: You just gotta take things as they come and let the past go.
What do you like the most about your body?: My lips. As long as Ive been alive Ive never had a problem about my lips.
And least?: My a**. I HATE IT!
Do you think you are good looking?: Yeah I guess.
Are you confident?: Most of the time.
What is the fictional character you are most like?: Disney's Mulan. Hell yeah.
Are you perceived wrongly?: Most of the time.



Do You...
Smoke?: No, my whole family smokes and I am being non-conformist. SO HAH!
Do drugs?: Nope. I've seen what it does to my brothers.
Read the newspaper?: I read the funnies.
Pray?: No. My kind of prayer is to concentrate really hard on what needs to happen, then just will it to happen.
Go to church?: No. There is no church for what I believe in.
Talk to strangers who IM you?: Only if they are nice strangers and aren't just trying to piss me off or send me porn.
Sleep with stuffed animals?: One giant cuddly one at each house.
Take walks in the rain?: Yes, because in the rain no one can see my tears... and it feels good.
Talk to people even though you hate them?: Depends on what I'm saying or how much I hate them.
Drive?: Only when Im learning.
Like to drive fast?: Only if I need to.


Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: Ive never hated it, but I don't particularly love it.
Hurt yourself?: Ive cut myself and attempted suicide...alot.
Been out of the country?: No, but I want to so badly!
Eaten something that made other people sick?: Not really. I eat some pretty normal stuff.
Been in love?: I thought I was once...
Done drugs?: NO. Unless you count helium and large amounts of caffiene.
Had surgery?: Yeah, I had my appendix removed.
Gotten beaten up?: No, I fight back, they run away.
Beaten someone up?: Once or twice, but not badly. Just enough to get themt o back the hell off.
Been picked on?: That's why I tried to kill myself when I was in elementary school.
Been on stage?: A couple times. I kinda like it.
Slept outdoors?: Oh so many times.
Thought about suicide?: Way too many times. Prozac is my friend.
Pulled an all nighter?: A couple times playing video games back before the SAVE option was invented.
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: I fell asleep at Ron's house on his bed before, but I donno if he was sleeping.
Slept all day?: Hell yes.
Killed someone?: No. I haven't had a good enough reason...
Made out with a stranger?: Nope. Im not slutty like that.
Had sex with a stranger?: See the above answer.
Thought you're going crazy?: Every now and again. I probably have.
Kissed the same sex?: A few times. On accident or dares mostly.
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: Not really.
Been betrayed?: *sniffle* please pull these knives out of my back. Theyre beginning to hurt.
Had a dream that came true?: Lots of times.
Broken the law?: Once when I was little I stole a prety fabric Rose, but I didn't know it was stealing.
Met a famous person?: UH...John Bobbit came to my house once, but he was at the wrong address.
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: Unless insects count, NOOOOO!
On purpose?: NEVER! unless you count insects. I am their greatest enemy.
Stolen anything?: See the breaking the law answer.
Been in a mosh-pit?: Not yet.
Had a dream that kept coming back?: Always.

Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: Earth CANNOT be the only planet in the universe with life.
Miracles?: Sometimes.
Astrology?: A little
Magic?: To a point.
God?: I have my own God.
Satan?: No.
Santa?: No.
Ghosts?: Yes, witout a doubt.
Love at first sight?: ...No that's a crush.
Witches?: Yeah, but not like the green pimpley cartoon ones.
Easter bunny?: No.
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: For a select few, yes. But on the most part, no.
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: A rainbow is a circle. It doesn't end. Also, Id be scared if I saw a little Irish man dressed all in green sitting on a pot at the end of a rainbow going "OH! you found me pot of gold!" I donno why. I just would.
Do you wish on stars?: Yeah, sometimes.

Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: No. I believe there is no Heaven or Hell, but a whole beyond that people, no matter what, go to when they die.
Do you think God has a gender?: No, I believe god is an amorphous bubble of energy that preserves balance in the universe. But that's just me.
Do you believe in organized religion?: No, they are money grubbing bastards. I think people should believe what they want.
Where do you think we go when we die?: Anywhere we want. The beyond place is everywhere.

Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: Yes, and Im fine with that.
Who is your best friend?: Sid/Mel/Mia/and yes even AJ
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: Ron, unfortunaltely.
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: Change what you can, accept what you can't.
Your favourite inside joke?: Don't have one at the moment.
Thing you're picked on most about?: How wierd I am.
Who's your longest known friend? My friend Kenny.
Newest?: Nick. Not Sid's Nick, my Nick.
Shyest?: Jhonathan I guess.
Funniest?: Nick
Sweetest?: Sid/Mia
Weirdest?: Mia/Mel
Smartest?: Johnathan again.
Ditziest?: Mia... kinda.
Friends you miss being close to the most?:Kenny
Last person you talked to online?: Wex
Who do you talk to most online?: Wex/ Sid
Who are you on the phone with most?: Mia/krystin
Who listens to your problems?: Sid/mia, when I decide to speak them out loud.
Who do you fight most with?: Sid. We can really go at it sometimes.
Who's the nicest?: Mia
Who's the most outgoing?: Mel
Who's the best singer?: Wes
Who's on your s**t-list?: RON RON RON RON RON, Melaura, Chynna, Waters, RON!
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: Once or twice.
Who's your second family?: Mel's family, or Krystin's family, or Sid's, or mia's even.
Do you always feel understood?: Not always, but I'm ok with that.
Who's the loudest friend?: We're all pretty loud.
Do you trust others easily?:Not always.
Who's house were you last at?: Nick's.
Do your friends know you?: I guess so.
Friend that lives farthest away: Wex.

Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: The last time I thought I was in love, yes.
What do you find romantic?: Rose petals, Moolight walks, Flowers, Rubbing my back, all that sort of stuff.
Turn-on?: Kissing my neck.
Turn-off?: Burping during a kiss or talking about other girls.
First kiss?: Matt Luckins at convention in Cali was my first REAL kiss.
If someone you had no interest in had interest in dating you, how would you feel?: I would be willing to be their friend, but I wouldn't date them. Dating out of pity is a horrible thing to do.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them?: Absolutely.
Have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out: Every no and again, but I dont worry about it much.
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. If Im interested I think theyre gorgeous no matter what. even if they have a horrid little sorry excuse for a mustache *coughRONcough* But then they are horrid again when they show how horrible they are in reality *coughRONhackcoughhack*
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: Yeah.
What is best about the opposite sex?: they don't stab you in the back like girls do.
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: They can be testosterone driven idiots.
What's the last present someone gave you?: Uhh...Sid gave me a pretty red neck ribbon thingy.
Do you consider your significant other hot?: Don't have a significant other right now.

Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: Ron
You wanted to kill?: Ron
That you laughed at?: In a good way, Nick/sid, in a mean way, Ron.
That laughed at you?: In a good way, Nick/sid, in a mean way, Ron.
That turned you on?: My own little mind.
You went shopping with?: My mom.
That broke your heart?: Ron
To disappoint you?: Ron
To ask you out?: ....Ron, but I think maybe Nick. I'm not sure if it counts though.
To make you cry?: This is easy, I just have to keep typing RON. Ron.
To brighten up your day?: Nick/Sid/Anthony
That you thought about?: In a good way, Nick. In an evil way, Ron.
You saw a movie with?: Collin and his friend.
You talked to on the phone?: Krystin
You saw?: My grandma
You lost?: Deathwise, the last I remeber was my Grandpa, but know there were more after him.

Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: Nope. Nowhere to go.
Will it be with your significant other?: No, I don't have one.
Or some random person?: Im not going out already!
What are you wearing right now?: Why do you want to know? A red shirt with zippers across the cest, black pants, a red and black belt.
Body part you're touching right now: my foot is toucing my ankle. I bet you wanted me to say boobs huh?
What are you worried about right now?: What you are thinking, you dirty person you.
What book are you reading?: The scarlet letter, War of the Spider Queen 2.
What's on your mousepad?: The mouse, and some astrological pictures that wiggle.
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: Tired, bored, hurting, content, horny. Yes thats right.