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Aging on or Moving on?
Growing up is the hardest thing to do. No one can tell you how to do it, and it sucks if your childhood never prepared you for it. Well, if you had an overly indulgent and happy-go-lucky one then you'll never be prepared for the harsh realities of the real world. I think about it a lot and I just wonder to myself sometimes...how does a 9 year-old transform/grow into an 11 year-old? Think about it. How is that with every second, every minute, every day and every year that we are changing? Now let's not state that obvious; we all change physically every time. Of course I understand that everything is flux as so famously said by one greek philosopher which I can't remember right now from taking my AP European History class (I didn't pay attention, whoops, what a waste of tax money haha).
But seriously, how? The thing some people don't realize is that change itself is really slow. It happens but we can't see it until it has happened...does that make sense? It's a long-term kind of thing. It's like a plant. You don't actually see it growing an inch and you never really do, even if you stayed awake for 24 hours staring at it. It just....grows an inch in like what, 4 weeks and you're like "WTF". And that's no different from you, and the other people around you. If you looked away for 3 years and came back to your friends you would notice many changes, big and small. But if you stuck around them you probably might not see those changes as clearly. Sure, if you've been around them enough then maybe you can start to catch their changes. But then again, the changes you see in them are what already "happened". You can never possibly catch someone in the middle of a change. I mean, what living being on earth ever has, really? Scientifically it's a tough thing to imagine and it's weird. Change doesn't happen as if you're talking to your pal Bob and midway he suddenly becomes nicer. Or... is that considered a change? Maybe not a long-term type of change, but maybe... small changes and alterations in our behavior are also what contribute to the big change in a person overall.
So in conclusion, I'm not quite sure how we really "change" but I do know for one thing that it's an amazing process. Even someone as plain and mundane as me who never does anything changes through the course of a year. I can say that I literally, nearly do NOTHING (it's bad, don't ask...) but yet I still see a change in myself. After six months, I can feel that I've changed. I think to myself sometimes, like other people do in bed at night reflecting on their sad (or happy) life, how my temperament has changed. And I feel awed by it but also a little sad.
The natural change that happens in all of us and everything around us, that consistent wave of flux reminds me that we should never take life too seriously.
Learn to breathe, learn to laugh, and live and love life a lot, if not at least a little bit. It's a happy and a painful reminder that we all have an expiration date and that our memories from the past, whether good or bad will slowly go away. The countless times you got bullied, the spectacular moment when you found out you were going to college, losing your virginity, your first job, first kiss, death of a loved one, a child being born, moving away from friends, parents dying, your pets dying, the last time you see your brother, the first time you bungee-jumped, your first prom dance.....all these things will eventually pass and that can either be good or bad. It's a wonderful reminder that bad things won't last forever, but so do the good things, so each of us have to really cherish the small moments in life as much as the big ones. Treasure the tiny moments where you make a grouchy person smile, even for a second because it's a satisfying feeling when you make someone happy! Treasure those moments with your daughter as you put a band-aid on her after she just fell off her bike. Yes, as cheesy as I sound right now, cherish the small moments in life! But who am I to tell you to do that when I complain about how boring my life is? Hahaha...silly me. But you get the idea sweatdrop
I know imagination is a good idea
I know those forging forward
Must embrace creativity
I know humans will shrivel from emotional needs
Before we die of starvation or dehydration
The body will take care of itself.
We need food for the Soul
We need poetry...We deserve poetry
We owe is to ourselves
To recreate ourselves
And find a different if not better way to live
Paint Me Hopeful
Paint Me Futuristic
Paint Me Nikki
~Paint me Like I am, Nikki Giovanni
P.S. I'm not going to edit this so please excuse any grammatical errors as you cringe at my english, thank you biggrin
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