Well I tried to kill myself Friday and i finally realized how many people actually cared for me. I hate looking at all the cut marks I have on my body...Friday I realized how many people I would have hurt. I know I know I should have known that before but I didnt. I still don't know why they care for me so much or why I matter so much to them. My family, friends and cops were out looking for me at 2 in the morning and later. They finally found me and I was close to being dead. I was really lucky. My family and I are getting help and hopefully things will get lots better. We are getting counceling and I know now that I want to live. I want my life to get better and I actually want help. Before I didn't want any help, I didn't even want to admit that I needed help. Truthfully I didn't even know I had a problem well that is all for now. I have some thinking to do. Merry X-MAS everyone. I love you and thanks.
 Wild_Vampire · Thu Dec 23, 2004 @ 08:21pm · 1 Comments |
