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Cries....
I cry for you... I cry for me, I cry of every baby with out a momma or pappa...
Lies...
Was all I hear from them and my family... neve anything nice comes from there mouths when they think I'm not listeing...
Everything else...
my asthmas slpwly killing me, starting first on my mind, making me crazy... my father treating me bad... people... poeple doing things to me that I don't want them to do... school and it's bullys and my insacuratys...

I was so... depressed i'm not going to lie,
there were some nights I just wanted to die,
times... times I had the knife so close to my wrist planing to cut up the right way...
so I couldn't come back... nights I too my inhaler till I passed out, nights I was stabed in the back mentaly by the one I loved, watching that person kiss another and then smile at me... but then I met you... that night I was planing to run away, crying, you pmed me... you said Hi how do you do? I talked and talked with you... then I stayed... and the next night.... was the same... till one night... and everything change for the better....

The crule reality of my life is not happy, Though I look like a homly avrage girl next door, a nerd with small issues only iqnored because of school... I wish I could say some of the things that happen to me.... I wish I could stop these thoughts but late night does this to me.... I'm sorry... really, I don't mean to right these stupid things but I need too..