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Ok why cant eveything just disaper? Like all the problems in the dump world be gone? I just want to run away. Or just start cutting again. I want to run away so far that no one will ever be able to see or hear from me again. And then on my run away i wont have any money so then i will starve...and then i will die...thats what i want to do...i mean there is nothing else...i cant run away to any of my friends because they think i have gays. And i dont. And i cant run to my dads because then my dad will go to jail agian. And i cant do that to him. And i cant take this anymore. I have to take care of my middle brother, Do all these house chores, Take care of all the pets, Take care of my mom, And still try to sleep or hangout with my friends. Thats why i just want to go leave at my dads. Because i belong there and not here. Because up here im just ruining everyones lifes. So From starting to day....im not going to eat. or drink water. and not going to talk to any of my friends. Unless like haley calles because i want to talk to haley. Becasue the only people that understand me is robert, haley, and kayice. and i dont think anyone else even cares. But you know what. This entry isnt to make you sorry for me...this entry is to remind me to do all of the things i said up there. And no one can stop me. Exept for like 1 person and im not going to say who. But this person i dont even talk to. And right now i dont want to talk to anyone. So you can call me and i mite answere. But i wont if i dont want to talk to you. So if i dont pick up that day dont call me agian that day.Plz... because that bugs me so bad.And i wont call you. But i hope i didnt cause to much pain in your life. And if i did im sorry. And you wont have to worry. Because you wont have to hear from me or see me....But you will see me in school. But hopefully you will only have to see for 1 year. And i will try not to talk to you as much as i can. And if you really want to talk to me just mail me on gaia. But i dout that will happen...I dont even no why i am righting this...its not like anyone is going to read it.yah sorry for your time....wait no one is reading it...so nvm.