It's occured to me recently that I don't ever go a full day at school or work without saying "I'm tired today." Every single day I say that. Everyone else does, too. No matter how much sleep you get, school and work just tire you out. Sure, every once in while there's this part of the day when you're all hyper and stuff.... but it doesn't last. There's never been a day that I can remember when I haven't said, "I'm tired" at least once.
Yeah, I dunno.... I guess I'm just bored and I've been thinking about that recently so I felt like writing it down.
Boredom. That's another thing. Does anyone ever realize how quickly and easily they get bored? I seriously go on the computer everyday after school. Now, we all do this because we think it's fun, right? That's why you're here now. But I always end up saying to myself, even as I'm doing stuff, "I'm bored." Like, I can even imagine someone walking around an amusment park and saying they're bored. Sure, they get on a ride and they're all excited as they're riding, but then they get off, walk a few steps, and are bored. I know I do that. And I'm pretty sure many others do too.
I also think we say we're tired when we're actually bored and vice versa. Like at school when you slump over, you're bored but you say you're tired.
Okay, I really don't know what I'm even talking about. If you're still reading this, you're totally disproving that thing I said earlier about how quickly and easily people get bored. Acutally, not just people, teenagers in particular. We kids have such short attention spans. It is crazy. I'm sure I've lost you all at this point and there's no point in me typing anymore and wasting my time because you all have gotten BORED and gone clicking away.
....... I don't even know...... I don't know why I just wrote all that. It was just all in my head..... and I..... was BORED. You know what? I'm tired, too. Tired of school and work, and dumb people at both places. Dumb teachers, dumb customers, dumb stupid mean girls, dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb. I'm so confused about life right now, and I have no one to talk to. And if you think you can be all like, "don't worry, you can talk to me about it, it's okay," well, it's not. Everyone wants to know what I'm so confused about, like they'll be able to understand how I feel and help me. But they won't. I can't tell them, because if I do, someone will find out that I don't want to find out..... There's only two people in the world besides me who know, and it's only because one of them forced me to tell him, and regrets it now, and the other one knows because she doesn't know anyone involved. I can't even say how much I want to tell everyone but don't want to at the same time.
Oh my God, I just don't know anymore! Frickin waste of time. OKAY OKAY I'M DONE.
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So here's my journal..... thing..... I'll probably just write about random stuff that I happen to be thinking about.....
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