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O, Green World..
Hm.
Today's Tuesday.
I've been talking to Becca on the phone early in the morning lately.
With my celly.
From 3 until 4:45.
It's not as long as I'd like it to be, but it's much better than what it was.
Sometimes I can't seem to hear myself think, no matter how much I scream inmy head.
It's almost like when I started getting over my schizophrenia.
I didn't believe my psychology teacher when he said there've been no recorded occurences of people recovering from schizophrenia.
I guess I kinda do now.
I'd give anything to just lay in her arms..
I actually started crying last night because I was so happy..
I asked her why she loved me and she said, "Because you love me, too.. and because of the way you laugh.. and the way you make me happy without even trying..."
I feel so helpless when it comes to her, because I love the girl so much I'd kill myself if I lost her..
Lately, I've been losing track of time more efficiently and haven't been able to focus much.
I fall asleep now at the most crucial moments.
I haven't slept fully in months.. Weeks, days, I don't remember..
My memory problem is getting better.
I can remember talking to some people today and what I had for lunch.
Maybe I'll forget my name one day..
~Are-kun
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