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The Dark Abyss

I fell again into this dark abyss
My pale arms wrapped around myself
As I calm myself, by singing to myself softly, my lullaby of pain
I can’t deny
The hollowness filling me
I try to pull through
But my memories always drift back…
Back to you

My heart is now shattered, once more.
My painful thoughts remain on you
I feel the sad, emptiness inside
But the relieving tears do not come.
I don’t cry on the outside anymore
I have learned to walk up bravely to the truth
To face it
I know you will never love me, for me
And I know I can never have you…

The lights flicker off and on…before finally going out
The welcoming light leaves me in the cold darkness
There is no escape.
I cry out for you to save me
But to you, my dear
Your deceiving ears only allow you to hear
Hushed whimpers
And you have left me,

I can’t stand this anymore
I got myself into this abyss of hurt
And I will pull myself out.
I now see why you shoved me from you…
Because I was blind to see
That the only person I needed was myself
I tried to give you everything…
But all you gave in return, was lies.
Now I know
That I am better off alone