October 26th, 2004, my father hit my mother. October 27th, 2004, I left and moved in with my aunt.
October 26th, 2006, I found child pornography on my step-father's computer. October 27th, 2006, I reported it to my school councellor then reported it to the police. I now live with my aunt, again.
My step-father is someone I've known since I was three years old when my parents split up. When I was five, my mom and him married. When I was seven, he adopted me. When I was twelve, my mom left him and went back to my father. My mother is a (recovering?) drug addict/alchoholic. My father is an alchoholic. My step-father smokes marijuana, and apparently looks at naked children (of the female gender) on his computer.
As of right now, I'm feeling very sick to the stomach, and very guilty. A lot of people have told me it's not my fault and I shouldn't feel bad about what I did, but this was my ******** step-father. Sure, he was a total ******** a*****e, and I didn't trust or respect him, but he's respected in his job and friends and reporting it could ruin that for him. But even though I feel selfish about it, what about me? What about what it's doing to me? What it's going to do to me? Anyway.. Though I'm not very reassured, I think I did the right thing. Now I'm gonna go and get some fresh air and go shopping with my aunt. Let's hope I'll feel better.
Dillusioned Fantasies · Sun Oct 29, 2006 @ 11:21pm · 2 Comments |