Well I talked to him. His grandmother gave me the address hes at, and I did a search for a phone number.. Hes there livin with some girl, Keara, he met her on a dating service cause he thought he didnt have another chance with me, He says their just friends though. When I told him that I loved him and wanted to be with him he seemed very happy, and said that he was going to come and be with me... I asked him what about Keara and he said hed takle care of it, even though their going out. I told him so many times that he didnt HAVE to come back to me, that I just wanted to hell him how I felt and that I felt that I missed my oppertunity with him and being happy, and that he should do what his heart says ((which I almost died saying)) to. And well he said "I could never be happy with anyone but you, you are my one, and thats what my heart is screaming out."... I should be ecstatic but I feel like a horrible human- being. I cant stand the thought of him breaking a girls heart because of me. I mean he went there to be with her ((cause he thought he couldnt be with me)), and they seemed to be doing really well, getting along great and everything... I guess its his choice but I'd rather it be me with a broken heart then a sweet inoccent girl. I'm so very confused.
Well his grandmother knew more than she made me believe, and boy does that piss me off. He left a note saying where hed gone. And when he called he DID infact give her the number where he was at, and the address.. But she didnt give me the address till today. I mean Jesus I pretty much had to annoy it outta her ((which I dont regret anymore)). She was just full of lies, saying she had no clue, that he'd left without a trase when he said he'd pretty left a trail of busses. She wont be to happy when we get back together, but I dont really care right now.. She has and is being a complete a** to me about this event, and I'm not caring. This isnt the first time she's been a jackass, she once said that because I was on Depo ((birth control; the shot.)) which makes me not have a period ((OH BABY YEA!!!!!! )) that I was going to have retarded children, I mean s**t woman if depo made that happen it wouldnt exactly be okay in the US, but I looked it up, after screaming my lungs out, and theres not a one incedent where that happens and trust me it would be said in the warnings, and would be reported somewhere, I mean its been out for like 25 years ((I think 10-15 in the US))...
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~~*~~ Thoughts and dreams by MegN ~~*~~
hey I'm MegN. This is my journal, where I'll put how i feel, whats happening, poetry, short stories, and anything else i might feel like writing. so enjoy.
hugs to you all,
MegN
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