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Well, just another day at school. My grand parents left today for Ukrain. They got there safely, thank God. I really didn't want them to go, 'cause I haven't seen them in 5 years. They were planing on staying here w/ us, but they left after 2 month. You know, today was the first time I didn't cry when they left. Tried to stay strong. I acted all hyper and happy at school today, noone noticed that I really was sad and a bit down today. Didn't want other people to worry over me. Trying to hold back the tears right now, this most likely will end up in me crying in my room while noone is there. A few other things are making me sad. Like, I just realised that I don't have a close friend that I could talk to when I'm down. Actually, I think I knew all along that I didn't have a friend like that but just didn't want to realize it. Now that I think about it, it might sound silly to everyone here (that is if anyone is going to read this), but I never had a friend like that. It's not that I don't have friends, which I do a lot of friends, just noone that close to me. A couple of days ago I thought I had one, but it turns out now that I don't. It turns out that that friend also needs a close friend, but apperently she wants to turn to her church friends. Which by the way, I'm more then 200% behind her, and cheering her on, because I don't want her to be in a situation like this one anymore. Well, I'm stuck living my life the way it is now, searching for a close friend, but not really finding one right now. Hopefully I'll get over this soon, so I won't have to pretend to be happy, but just be happy.

Have a wonderfull day everyone, and keep all of those close friends close to you. You never know when you'll need them, or they will need you.

Hugs and Kisses. ~ Kawai