A bit of sadness for me today. My birdie died this morning. Im glad I wasn't there to be the one who found her, but Im not entirely suprised that she died. I knew it was coming. She started spending all her time at the bottom of her cage recently and she was older than me. I loved her alot, but its better for her this way. Her leg was broken by my cat and it healed funny, so she couldn't really walk right, she didn't get enough attention, and she just looked haggard. Im sad I lost her, but I just gotta except it. Im soon gonna lose a couple more people I love.
As far as wanting a boyfriend goes, I think thats not exactly what I want. True, I want the ...advantages... of a relationship, but what I really need is just someone to hug and be close to who I know wont enjoy it more than me. Some one I don't really need to be that attatched to, but someone I like none the less. I have a friend like that now, even though I don't know how much he minds me clinging. He has a boyfriend too, so I know he doesn't get more out of it than there is meant to be. Not only will it help me not feel so lonely without a boyfriend, but it will help curb my more perveted sense of humor. I've sort of begun to think that not everyone understands when Im joking sweatdrop Like when I say stuff to a guy that already has a GF Im never serious, because I hate people who try to take my BFs so I refuse to do it to other people. But maybe soemtimes I sound too serious and don't realize it.
Blh, after school today all my friends I was hanging out with gravitated to where Sikey haired Priest girl and ron were standing so I ended up having to hang around HIM. I just pretended he didn't exist....and called him a fat-head. There are about fifty million worse things I could've called him, but none the less, it made me feel a bit more relieved. I also got to call him an a*****e. I yelled it at him too, becase my huggable friend asked him to watch his stuff while he walked me to the bus and he went "ok" . Then as we walked away, he just walked away from it. I think he was mad at him because I was clinging to him. And he started like, midair humping me. And unzipped my shirt.....and stuff. But still, it was very liberating.
Mi chi has been seeming very distant. Kind of like she couldn't care less if me and mei chan and si chi just dissapeared. It irritates me, and makes me want to ignore her untill she decides I exist again.
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I'm so sorry! *hugs her* I love birdies. crying
*bangs head to get bad thoughts out* stressed