WTH is going on?
<center>mood: confused, scared...>.> paranoid *sighs* </center>
First off, I need to apologize for my last journal topic like I said I would -.- I was feeling really strange. I'm sorry everybody.
Now on to this journal post.
Well, I'm starting to think that something is wrong with me...I've been feeling really weird lately...but not like I'm sick or anything. Like I've gone emotion crazy or something. For a good while, I haven't felt myself feel anything...like I can't tell if I'm happy, or sad. Thoughts are racing through my head so fast, it seems as though my head is just empty. Also, I have a lot less energy than usual. I'm confused with myself. I get depressed when there's nothing to be depressed about, and I just feel dead sometimes. Like right now, my body isn't even listening to me...it's taking me forever to type this because my hands aren't hitting the keys I'm telling them go. When I look at something, I get really dizzy. I've also had a bunch of moodswings lately. I got from extremely happy to disturbingly upset, or vise versa...I feel brain dead and nerve dead...I get no sleep, either. Am I becoming mentally sick? This has been going on for quite a while...but I thought that it would just go away and then I'd just catch a cold or something. If I tell mom and dad, I know they'll just think I'm trying to stay home from marching or going to school...or to get some attention. I went online to do some research...what scares me is that Bipolar and Manic Depression kept popping up...I'm going to refuse to believe that I am Bipolar. Eh...maybe because it confuses me...Even the simplest things are confusing me right now. I can't concentrate on anything. It's nerve racking...And then, when I talk to people, I reply to them all happy and hyper like, cause I know they'll think I'm just whining to get attention...I wish Ii could find someone that could explain what's wrong with me, and help me out. I feel so unlike me, so unusual...I can't think strait enough to find the right words.
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