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...i messed up big time... i ******** up the best thing in my life.. it shows that i am crused... ill never be able to have a long relation ship, something always happens and i ******** up...

would u feel better if i died?
would u feel better if i did suicide?
Roxanne i feel like im gunna kill myself for what i did to u
how can i make u feel better?
do u want to kill me?
ill let u...just put the blade though my heart...like i did to u..
im sorry i didnt mean to do that to u
i couldnt control it...
i love u with all my heart...so mabey u should cut it out...
ur the best thing that hasever happend to me..
yet i go around and hurt u like that...
i dont know what is wrong with me
i wish u could help me...or just kill me...
u hate my guts... u hate my heart... u probaly hate my exsistance...
i didnt mean to hurt u..
i couldnt help it...
it happend though...i amit that...and i cant come up with excuses..
i await your desision... and no matter what it is i want u to know that i love u roxanne

this is how i feel... i did roxanne a wrong.. so i feel like she should have the right to end me.... i love her with alll i am... but i ******** up so bad... if shes mad, i hope she vents to me... screems to mean and yells at me... if she wants she can kill me i dont care... its my fault i put her though the pain...so its fair that she does the same to me...