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I feel really awful
for what I have done to you.
I am really, truly, very sorry,
and I know that you are too.
It started out as fun and games,
but then the situation changed.
I couldn't think of what to do,
or how to avoid hurting you.
I was thinking if I told you,
how would you feel,
knowing that I'm not really for real?
In my mind all that I could see was my fear,
that someday, maybe, you wouldn't want me near.
All the time I was lying to you,
I was scared of your reaction,
I was scared of what you might do,
if you really knew the truth.
But most of all, I was scared to let you know,
how much I really do love you.