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sighs I don't know why, but lately I don't feel like doing anything. I'm always slacking off. I'm also bored by everything, my studies, my family, and my friends. gonk I didn't know what to do like career and I finally chose to become a psychologist. When I think of it I have no future and no dream. I don't know I just feel so depressed. I'm always smiling so everyone thinks life is wonderful since I always say that phrase when I'm happy. I always complain about everything and my friends find that annoying so they tell me to stop complaining. But if I don't complain, I feel bad and sad. Seriously, I'm sick and tired of this world. I can't wait to die... Of course, everyone has it's own thought of what happens after we die. So I would become a spirit, I'll go see my funeral and laugh seeing people crying. If they're not, I'll just leave. I've always wanted to know what's after death, I'm a bit afraid but if I don't have to feel any pain, that's fine with me. xd Well, life isn't always as beautiful as we think it is... surprised

Posted by: kawaii_chibi Sat Feb 12, 2005 @ 02:17am

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Commented on: Sun Feb 13, 2005 @ 04:41pm


	I know what you mean ^^;... But still, don't die. There's nothing after. And doing nothing is boring, and then, you'll want to die but you'll aready be dead, tssss sad . We heart you mad

Commented on: Mon Feb 14, 2005 @ 12:04am


	Someone understands me? eek That's a surprise! Don't worry I won't die. I'm such a coward to actually do that... gonk I don't know if it'll be that boring... Well compared to my life now. I might not even be able to go to cegep. At least, I'll be working and 2 years wasted won't hurt. surprised People say that they love me, but I don't think they really mean it. Seriously, I feel that people use me and then they dare say that I'm the one using them! domokun I'm sick of everything! ninja

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Commented on: Mon Feb 14, 2005 @ 11:28am


	OH! Squeal Your so cute even when you are depressed! Your like, "I want to die, but I just can't aford the gun or the bullets." Then you get distracted. "Oh, look they opened a Cinnabon across the street!" While your eating the cinnamin roll you gush with joy about how good it taste and say. "It's good to be alive." Absolutely loseing the previous thoughts that you had about your own demise. 4laugh Your good insperation for an anime. Oh! No one steal my idea! scream She is my real life, anime, chibi! hugs you protectively whee On a serious note however. I do indeed know what you are talking about, sweety. I feel that I was put on this world to make a diferance or to do something extrodanary, but how can I do that when all I do is work and sleep. I hardly have time or the intrest about going to the parties and clubs that everyone else is at. Board with life and traveling forward with no direction. Music, Yaoi, and friends keep me going and smiling though each day, but sometimes even that is not enough. Just geting though each day seems like a meracle. Thats what i'm supose to be happy about? Getting though each day so that I can face another one just like the one before? Do forgive me for not jumping up and down. Oh, well there is always Cinnabon! blaugh

Commented on: Wed Feb 16, 2005 @ 10:48pm


	See? She's better than me for those things, it seems 4laugh ! She's right, we know it, listen to her mad ^_^

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Commented on: Sat Feb 19, 2005 @ 10:09am


	Ok, I'll listen to her... I always do anyway. But now I feel extremely happy and I do feel like eating cinnamon rolls. ^^ Thanks Muffin, you're my hero! whee And you are too Cheffy! surprised So I'll continue living and making everyone smile! I think that's the only talent I got, if I can even consider it as a talent! gonk

Commented on: Tue Mar 29, 2005 @ 05:10am


	You always make us smileys whee KC must not feel baddy cuz if KC does me feel baddy.. crying and when me feel baddy.. er.. me feel baddy..[wtf am i saying?]. Anyway.. who cares about the future.. live the present and if you don't get accepted into cegep, how d'yu think i will? You know that I flunked maths and physics.. sweatdrop at least you passed.. xp To make it worse.. I don't even try to upgrade my marks.. I just slack off even more.. I'm such a bad example.. xd Anyway, if KC smileyz DL smileyz and everyone too [that includes our table friends xp ((i really like that name..lol))]!!

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Commented on: Sat Apr 02, 2005 @ 01:32am


	Our "table friends" said that when I'm sad, they're sad too and that I'm able to make them happy. sweatdrop They say I have ze talent to make them smile or laugh even if I'm making a fool of myself. xd Anyway, I'm living the present as it is even if I failed physics! xp Just hope I'll pass the next exams and be accepted next year even if I don't like the subject... gonk

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