I have lied to myself...my heart...my soul....
For only one person has the power to live on...that is me...
only i can live on for myself....i have mistakenly intrusted someone that was unworthly of me....all this time i thought i was unworthly....yet they have betrayed me and left me to die....one day....one day the winds will catch up to her...one day she will feel my pain...one day the waters from the depths of the ocean will wash away her reaking stench of.....of....i cannot even think of the word to describe this....i would say heart but what heart..what heart can a monster such as she possess....for one as stupid as me who had pouren his heart out to please her and get left in the ashes of eternal hell fire.....Racheal....you are more of a burden than a love i once held....i would prefer to have this all over with...i would prefer to take my aanger out on those who deserve it....but the question is.....how would i know who deserved it.....the death of my bestfriend....my own hands drenched in his blood.....did he deserve it.....i think to myself often times about what i have become....what have i become....a mersless killer....i have rolplayed as that but yet no one has known that i roleplay exactly as what i am what i feel and what i will become.....my character in gaia is simply me....but....i willl...i will get this off my chest...i am a murder....i killed my heart my soul and my body.....but when i come to think about this it was not i only responsable for this but the ones who pitched in and gave me hopes of happiness but ruined me.....i wish to thank them by ruining them aswell...but knowing that will never bring me peace althouugh i desperately want revenge...i shall suffer for the rest of my unholy life....but i will try....i will try to purify it atleast a small bit of my heart......
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