..........I still think of him. I miss him so much. I thought things would be better once I cleared out all of Dad's stuff from my Nuna's house....But things still hurt. Everytime I need to do something, he's there. I'm ALWAYS so constantly reminded of him, no matter what I do. I guess it doesn't help that his stuff is everywhere now either, but I just can't get rid of it. Yes, they remind me of him, and yes it bothers me, but I still enjoy having his things around. Sometimes (depending on what is) it even gives me some form of comfort, even though most of the time I just break down in tears again. His birthday is the 18th of this month. He would have been 50 if he had lived. I can't help but miss him. I still hate crying though, because I want to be happy, and even when I sometimes try, it sometimes doesn't work. Sometimes. My heart has been broken ever since he was gone to begin with. cry I don't think it can ever be fixed again. And, I just know the same thing is going to happen to me again this June. My birthday is only a few days after Father's Day. I hope I can keep a straight face for all my friends when the time comes. It just won't be the same without him though, and that's what keeps on killing me inside. heart I feel like I'm slowly dying from a broken heart at times....
I wish he was never sick to begin with. cry
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Hang in there. Soon the wounds will mend. Only the scars will remain. It just has to be given some time.
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