As You Die
I can't take this anymore This is getting so annoying You need to shut up! Shut up! Shut up I say! Shut up! I walk away from you enraged I have had enough of this Time for you to die If you want to live Then I suggest you run But that won't do you any good! I grab the knife and hide it Behind me I walk towards you with an evil Smile Your eyes widen as I lift the knife But then, I realize This would be too fast and easy So then I put the knife down And let you go But then I see you on the news You had killed one of my loved ones That was it I grab a rope and head to your house When you walk in I wrap the rope around your neck You struggle to breathe (but the rope will not loosen) You scream as I'm killing you (but nothing comes out) You scratch away at me (I don't even feel it) You made a big mistake Now I hope you are enjoying Your slow and painful death And as you die I hope you burn in hell And your soul will be tortured Until the end of time! You struggle to breathe (but the rope will not loosen) You scream as I'm killing you (but nothing comes out) You scratch away at me (I don't even feel it) Coming to you Is blackness and nothingness That is what you deserve You lived in fear for so long Now I am putting an end To your misery Now as you lie dead I hope you learned something But you couldn't have since I was killing you (killing you) Killing you (killing you)
The Darkness Within
I sit here alone and cold Trying so hard To keep from breaking down I keep thinking of your sweet face My fate is not yet determined Though I must journey on You haunt me in my dreams You're always in my mind (in my mind) I cry and cry Because of your death I hold the darkness within So t'will not unleash The darkness within Is unbearable It holds me down Holds me back from speaking Make me weak inside I'm screaming (crying out for the pain) I'm hurting for you (the pain builds up deep inside) I can't take this (no no can't take this pain) My eyes are cold My heart is grey I need you I need you here again (to take away all the hurt) I love you I miss you I miss the way you used to hold me When I was scared Come to me and say you're here Come to me and protect me from Myself This pain eats me up inside I'm screaming (crying out for the pain) I'm hurting for you (the pain builds up deep inside) I can't take this (no no can?t take all this pain) Why can't you see? I need some time to myself This pain is too much I need to rebuild my life I need to look deep inside And hide I need to get away from it all I wish I could make it go away The darkness within me calls The darkness within me screams The darkness within me cries out For more pain (cries for more)
My Suicide
I lay on the ground Screaming, bleeding Crying out for the answer To my fate What is to become of me? What does the future hold for me? The darkness corrodes In my mind It lingers and lingers While its spiny fingers Point at my deception And hold death before me I shall not conform with them I shall not give in To its dark corruption The darkness calls my name (screaming for me) The darkness tries to seduce me (I shall never lose) Corruption, deception, and deceit All of it, lies The darkness is reaching out to me (you shall not have me!) I fight the craving I must not feed It's black flames Beyond the darkness I rise To kill what has left me Lies and deception The key to evil Corruption The key to hell We shall foresee What the future holds I do not care For what is to become We pay no heed To what has been forgotten Love and hate Holds the key to the answers Depression and compassion Holds the key to my suicide What is this life for? What the hell is the key To the answers? Love, lust, and passion Is the death of us all We have been forsaken The darkness calls my name (screaming for me) The darkness tries to seduce me (I shall never lose) Corruption, deception, and deceit All of it, lies The darkness is reaching out to me (you shall not have me!) We shall not lose this war We shall defeat the enemy And become the victor Kill the monster that lives within Kill the monster (die b***h die!) Kill the monster that lives within Kill the monster (you shall die!) I'm on the ground dying What is my fate? Is my fate to lay here and die? Is my fate to go on? NO! I will not give in! The darkness still calls But it will not win I will rise above And kill the beast within The darkness calls my name (screaming for me) The darkness tries to seduce me (I shall never lose) Corruption, deception, and deceit All of it, lies The darkness is reaching out to me (you shall not have me!) Is this the only key To my suicide? Depression and compassion Love and hate Lies and deception Lust and passion All of these Are the key To my suicide (my suicide) The key To my suicide (my suicide) To my suicide!!
Dying inside
Oooh aaah Oooh aaah I was once a very happy soul Never had a fear Never had a worry A happy family I once had Long ago I thought I had it all Everything a girl could dream of But when that day came That day that split us all apart I was depressed, I know That this has hurt me so My pain was a burden What happened to you? Why don't you care? (don't you care?) You used to talk to me Once in a while I can't understand What's come over you It hurts me to know you don't care It angers me to not hear from you You took my emotions and screwed them All up I need you to come back into my life I'm dying inside I'm trying to hold myself up Trying to hold my head up high Dying inside, father Cuz you're no longer here In my life I'm trying so hard Not to think about all this pain and suffering You've caused me But it's hard for me Why can't you see that we need you? Why must you be with that other Woman? (whom you left mother for) Don't you see what she has cost you? She has mentally abused me And I no longer care for her She has brainwashed you You left your own daughters For a world of loneliness and pain I'm dying inside I'm trying to hold myself up Dying inside, father Cuz you're no longer here In my life I'm trying so hard Not to think about all this pain and suffering You've caused me But it's hard for me Why did you do this to me? You abandoned me You threw me out of your life And left me in a world of cold darkness Now I have no fatherly figure Because of your cold hearted ways You don't even know what's going on anymore My heart is broken I am on the ground on my knees Crying and screaming Punching things in Wanting to know Why you don't care (reaching out for you) But I'm feeling nothing Why?! Why?! I can't believe would let that woman Hurt your kids While we were there with you Everyday another nightmare to live every night a new fear to fear I'm crying Come back to me please? I'm dying inside Trying to hold myself up Dying inside, father Cuz you're not here To be the father you should be I've tried so hard Not to think about all the pain and suffering You have happily caused me But it got the best of me I hate you now father You're a no good unloving dad My sister has not stayed out of trouble Because you decided to abandon us You're such a ******** dog If you're gonna do this to us Then why do I waste my time on you? My life is not exciting anymore I have been angry I have been sad You have screwed me up My life has been miserable The only thing that Is happy and exciting in my Life Is my boyfriend My one and only love He is always there for me He will never leave me Like you did You're not a father You're not anything to me anymore You're just a figment of my imagination I hate you! I hate you! You left your kids and never returned Why are you doing this? Look what you've done to me! I can't be happy now I have no father A big piece of me is gone You are the cause of this! I'm dying inside I've tried and tried But I can't hold myself up (I am nothing) I have to look up to my friend's dads As a father to me (I don't know what's real) Now all I think about Is the pain and suffering I have been left with For the rest of my life (all because of you) You say you love us You say you care But you don't even bother To write or call us It's hard not having a father To look up to It's hard to deal with all these problems You left me with So I am forever dying inside Forever crying (because of you)
LadySapheira · Wed Feb 28, 2007 @ 03:30pm · 1 Comments |