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Journal day 25 (The sorrow)
Yes I have been playing metal gear solid 3 where there is a "boss" whose name is The sorrow. Evil Hideo. Had me in his trap. Or a joke what ever you want it.
Still the sorrow is kind of todays work cause I feel like it. It's a sad sorrow I feel today. Not the usual gloomy myself with the humour in there. Without it and kind of dark thing. That way that hurts you deep inside. Not a happy good feeling it is.
Why you may wonder? (Who realy wonders this when we speak about me) Well it is kind of social and dream thing. Hard to explain and thing that I realy don't wanna say. Don't want to put it out in open. I realy need to kee this one thing inside of me. I can share it with few of my friends but just some. Thouse special some ones that there is only two in my world. (No it isn't that bad realy just things in my life. You know the normal things.)
I don't like this feeling. i realy hate this. I haven't feel this for a long time so I am been quite happy all this time. This is the hate. The feeling I realy don't see any good to go on and etc. Not that this is going to be a long feeling (I hope) It is just now. Need to do something to get mind out of it and tomorrow everything is normal (Maybe even today).
I am good in just getting use to things that I don't like. I have said many times that I don't want anything big but in some point of view it is kind of big. Everything is in the eyes of beholder. And this is one of thouse.
Maybe some day I will get the thing I need and want... Now i can be alone and think about my life.