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ahhh! i'm sick of randi asking. so here you go. everything that goes through my head.
ack. whatever. in school: book. lunch: book, though half of you guys. just observing, reavaluating motions. to try and see through the facades and find out if someone's pissed or sad. i can usually tell. in class: i listen mostly to teachers, but whenever they give time to work on homework, i'm typing book the stuff i can remember....
yeah. if i seem distant or pissed off for no apparent reason it's because i'm trying to remember a page or so of writing i should do... it comes to me in pages, and usually when there are no laptops or spare pieces of paper. bus ride to/from: is reserved for mentally editing pieces of writing and thinking of a person's speech. it's so important, and depends on their personality. but i could also be brooding over jenny's daily stupidness. ninja uhh... then home: there's not really time to think. i just try to remember and copy down. the thinking only comes at around eleven, when everyone falls asleep and i bring out the homework.
ummm... car rides: it depends. sometimes i don't think at all, just clear my head, and gaze out the window for hours at a time. i don't move, either. it's my special super freakish talent. but we all have one, don't we? then any other time... about anything, i guess. it's hard to remember it all. but i can tune things out as well. i have no dreams, but once or twice a month, on a rare occasion, i get a nightmare. i forget it as soon as i open my eyes, but it shakes me up for an hour or so. then i'm fine. i can tune out autumn's voice better, and grace's and kristi's. i hate the simple-mindedness of their comments. it frustrates me. and of course, when i really need to, the drone of a teacher is easy to forget. then my mind wanders as she's reviewing a test or something....
of course, out of courtesy and the fact that i'll skip over something that will futurely be important, i almost always listen to you guys. heart
that's it. woo-hoo. the inner workings of my head. happy? confused

p.s. i found that this trimester, i was the only one to get an a+ in la. i really do like the subject, no matter what anyone says, because i always seem to get better by the end of the year. i need more than just reading books. it's too bad 9th graders can't get in higher than just the academic level..... i would have really loved a 10th or 11th grade class, even if writing a paper took the whole day. i want more exposure.
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