Un-pretty star..squared
I try so hard to be a pretty pretty star, but it's all in vain. I am beginning to feel it's something I just cannot be..even separated, I can't be pretty, pretty..and I can't be a star either...I can be neither, and it's devastating. What to do when it feels as if the world has given up on you? What do you do when pleasure leaves and desire fades? What to do when pain is more desirable than even the strongest love? I should have given into bitter passion and intense hatred...I should have let myself be used over and over again...then at least my outsides and insides would match..but perhaps they already do. Sad, ugly, and broken is all I'm meant for..
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