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I would like to say that people on Gaia art Arena can KISS MY BUTT!

I am so sick of people telling me how much I suck and that I didn't put a lot of effort into my artwork.

When I put my art up for public view, I expect criticism, and I excpect people to say things I'm not going to like. HOWEVER

1) Complete rude comments are absolutely unneccessay. Telling me I put no effort into my art, my art makes you barf, or I draw like a 3 year old is completely unwarented.

I removed one picture from gaia because it continually got very rude comments.

Then, there is one picture that isn't great in comparision to a lot of other art, especially digital art and proffessional level art. But guess what, I'm not a digital artist and I'm not a proffessional. I am an amatuer who draws like they have since they were a child because it's fun. I do not appreciate people telling me I didn't put effort into a picture, expecially if it is one I spent hours on. That pisses me off. It might not be great in compasion, but it hurts to have on of the best pieces i've done so far, completely debased.

2) This isn't a proffessional art arena, people here are amateurs, give a freaking break people.

3) Not every body has photoshop or digital art programs. It's not fair to hold people responsible for not doing things in art that can only be done in a digital art program.

4) READ THE DESCRIPTION! It is there for a reason, ok?


It might seem stupid but earlier today I started to cry because of something someone said on the art arena. I can handle decent and constructive criticism, even some thats a little harsh. But being blatently mean and debasing my efforts just really hurts.

So to all you rude art critics out there, I give you the one finger salute.

The economy is turned off right now. I assume Gaia is updating crap. First I couldn't get in my account, I started freaking out because it said something about ToS so I thought I got banned or something. BuIt didn't help that my profile had a similar error message. So I checked my e-mail, logged into another account, and tried again. Thank goodness it let me in. I would have been super pissed and probably quit Gaia. Ok I might have quite Gaia. Grrrness squared.

I can't do anything around here because it won't let me or I won't get any money for it. That makes me sad because I am trying to save up for stuff. Wah!

I'm a senior so I graduate this year, I don't really have to be in school except for wensday and thursady afternoon. But I came to school for half the day and then went to the college next door where I'm going next year. I'm excited and scared about graduating though. I hope things go good next year for me.

I muct write a literary Criticism for my AP English class on a short story titled "A White Heron". I love to read, and I love to write so thats not where the problem lies. It's that... I wish I could just enjoy literature sometimes, or analyze a meaningful work of my choosing, or even of my own creation! Upper education so far has not been about expanding my mind. It's about showing me how to read and write to societies expectations. This is very ironic considering the fact that we are reading several books pertaining to women conforming into societies unwritten rules. There will always be rules, and someone, somewhere, will always be held to them. xp

Today has been a dreary day, forgetting homework, not seeing the movie in class, demolishing my english grade, dissapointing myself with my effort. I have been nothing but a grave dissapointment to myself. I have the ability, the intellengence to do things that I simply do not do. For no good reason. And what is my time spent doing? Nothing import, laying my head down. I don't even use it often to write or draw for fun. I waste away my body and talents, a dissapointment to my family, to the whole world. But more importantly, I dissapointed myself.

I feel angry for my behavoir but why, why can't I bring myself to change. What is it? What is dragging me down? I don't know, or maybe I don't want to know. I have the potensial, I have the resources, I have the opportunity! I must find it in myself to use the things gifted to me, or I shall become the worlds smartest bum, wasting away as an internal wreck untill either body or mind takes my sorrowed life away. Is that what I want? Never... Never... I will find it in myself to reach my dreams, and I will draw my friends and strangers to do the same. We all have hopes and dreams, if we can achieve them, we need to try, try as hard as we can.