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I just read entries in the old live journal from 2009, 2008, 2007, 2006 and 2005. the further back i went, the angrier i read. in September 2005, i was in college and would spit fire on any thing in sight. i had fights with the editors at the school news paper and drama with girls and everything called for a long drawn out entry that, while it's funny reading, it makes me just cover my face and go "ugh" in disgust. everything was big and important and serious back then.
in 2006 and 2007, I was watching sports a lot, apprently. and really giving a s**t about it and writing these disrotations about the Ravens, the Lions, the Raiders, the Jets and the Cowboys. They were epic and fun but i remember thinking how silly typing these bullet-mouthed rants about Jon Kitna was. i used to have so much energy for that. I must have been drinking more coffee.
in 2008, i wrote little things about working at the club which were remarkable. exchanges between Jeff and I where we quote star wars and I DJ for Jarett while his dumb truck wouldn't start. I didn't do it often but when i did, i would say in to the mic, all smooth, "Gentlemen, this is your captain speaking...."
in 2009, I was really starting to write fewer entries. i had less time to work with it all and i was under the most stress i'd ever experienced. my writing usually comes about better when i'm unstressed and depressed or having sex and going out a lot. i'm not terribly stressed. i'm far from depressed. i'm not getting laid (but so what, i'm in no mood to deal with a woman these days) and i don't go out much.
this year, i've only done writing for projects mostly. i've had to devote a lot of my creative energy to work and being part of a pop culture i don't understand makes it hard to come up with with the good old venom i had back when i was 24 and thought from my little livejournal soap box, i could change the world.
nah. can't. don't wanna. the world didn't wanna change.