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-leans aginst the doorway, cig in her mouth, hands in her pockets, her button down shirt blown softly by the wind-
life...how easily it comes and goes...its much like the ruins of hell that i own these days...i dont know, im lost again, confusion fills me. my old wounds wont heal...and im not sure why...a new woman is in my life...-laughs softly, exhaling her cig- they come and go it seems, when will i keep one? not as a posetion but as a mutal understanding of emotions and mental stimulations...the turmoil that rages in my heart...will it ever cease?
but life goes on, and so must i...
i am Haruka after all...
arent i?
 Lord Haruka Wind · Fri Jan 20, 2006 @ 03:56am · 0 Comments |
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-looking out of her balcony she gazes out into the distance at a girl, raising the glass of brandy to her lips she sips it silently, deep in thought-
How did you come into my life...who put you here upon this god forsaken rotting filth of a home...only to smile at my prescence and laugh at my mind. Little imp, what am i to do. you have turned my world upside down, when all was lost you made is right...when all was doomed you held my hand tight...and yet....you cont to say those 3 words i have now realized i have always longed to hear...you say them with such meaning, you say them with such grace...you mean it...you say what you mean, always have i suppose...but the comfort that is there behind those words, behind that meaning...to know that it is all true...
Dearest i love you...
Lord Haruka Wind · Sat Mar 26, 2005 @ 04:13pm · 0 Comments |
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Hate is such a strong word... |
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-standing outside of her room on the balcony, a glass of brandy in her hand as she was bent over the railing. She stared off into the darknening horizen. Her thoughts led astray-
Who would have thought that the darkness within my soul would find a light. But still i am afraid..Heh, me the Lord of the Nine Hellz and im afraid of a girl. Why does this light, who is so much like me, cause me such pain? I shall never understand it...i shall never understand the workings of my inner soul and i shall never understand that which makes me who i am, living each day as if there is no tomarrow....perhaps...perhaps i am losing myself once again.....
-gulping down her brandy she stands there quietly watching the horizen darken further.-
Lord Haruka Wind · Tue Jan 04, 2005 @ 02:25am · 0 Comments |
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I knew it! I knew i was forgetting something! Damn cold hearted b***h!
-paces in her study-
Why? Why did she have to freeze everything? Make it so damn cold?!
-sighs-
I better get this mess cleaned up...i knew i shouldnt have canceled that dinner date when she was horny! DAMNIT!
DAMN YOU MOTHER NATURE!!
Lord Haruka Wind · Tue Dec 28, 2004 @ 06:47pm · 0 Comments |
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Back at last...Power remains in the hands of the orderly... |
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My trip was satisfactory, enjoyable and pleasent all at the same time. Cold i must admit, unlike the firey depths of hell which i am acustomed to.
-sits in her leather chair befor the fire and pulls out a cig, lighting it with her hand-
Family can be rather annoying none the less...why i have so many is beyond me...they need to die the majority of them...but there is no where to put them if they do die...i have yet to have found peace within my soul. Not that a ruler of The Nine Hells should find peace but it is a comforting thought from time to time...
ive slowly felt myself dieing...a part of me is slipping away and i am unsure of what it is that is causing my sudden emptyness...
-smokes her cig and sits there in her thoughts-
My mind is astray again...i must go and tend to buisness...
-grins to herself-
i need to get laid...perhaps that shall be on the top of my list...
-sighs-
so many children to please this christmas...so many women to please....what am i to do...
I feel that many have lost sight of the holiday season, im afraid that people dont realize that its not about the gifts...but the love one can give...i feel some have forgotten this...
-shakes head-
this saddens me...
Lord Haruka Wind · Sat Dec 18, 2004 @ 04:59pm · 0 Comments |
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Five more days....
my world will change in five more days...im going out of town...
-pulls out a cig-
I have selected a new heir to rule... Ginn...my adopted daughter....Ryo is still but to young...and she is the only one i seem to find worthy....
I must leave now...preperations to make before i leave, and to test Ginn's ability to rule....
Lord Haruka Wind · Sat Dec 04, 2004 @ 03:30pm · 0 Comments |
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-sits in her study, sitting in her fav leather chair watching the flames of the fire, deep in thought-
How do you know if your in love with someone?
-pulls out a cig and smokes it-
How does one know everything will be right and that things are truley meant to be the way they are?
I ponder things like this from time to time...when do you experiance it? and when does the trust come back...when do you stop beating on yourself for things that happened in the past...and when do you start to trust those who know you best...
when do you know that your in love...
truthfully im tired of womanizing..im tired of flirting around...i want only one person...i want to hold her tight...i wish this was made clear to me and i didnt have to fight with myself...to decide if it is me she wants for the rest of her life...or am i just hopeing for a love that may never be....
-exhales her cig, her thoughts a blur-
Please forgive the ramblings of a mind that has to be beaten in order to be quiet....
Lord Haruka Wind · Sat Nov 27, 2004 @ 10:13pm · 0 Comments |
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Another day in paridise....pfft yeah..right |
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-looks around from her balcony, the millions of souls below her scream in agony-
Great...another day...-rolls eyes-
Lord Haruka Wind · Sat Nov 27, 2004 @ 09:04pm · 1 Comments |
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