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So tired...and stressed...
Man, what a period. Everything has been so un-impressing. I started working again at Dora Moore Elementary again last Friday and boy I tell you, if I didn't have the fun staff I did, I would've quit. Working is so tiring, I get up around 6:00-6:30 and leave by 7:00am. Well Actually I might have that wrong though, I might actually have to be at work by 7, I really cant remember. Oh bother! On the slip side I do get paid, not a lot though. I am going to contact a friend of my grandmothers' who can possibly train me in the field of computers, and well along with that I will be paid handsomely, around $50 an hour I believe when I train and work along side this guy fixing computers. Now that is worth the stress, $50 and hour is incredible. Oh and college is coming up so quick, I hate it. I mean truthfully, I wanted to take another year of high school because I wasn't ready just yet, but alas society through me out and said "get a job and go to school". I will go to CU Denver for a year then transfer out to CU Boulder. I will not pursue though however, a strong art background. I am not a perfect artist, and I will not compete with other artists for my own role in the world. I will study Psychology, Political Science, and Media Art. But I am a little hopeful of the future, now that I am out of high school, this is where every one will see just how competitive I am, mark those words, I will show every one up with my knowledge, done deal. I am continuously losing weight which is great and getting thinner which is cool. I have started to crack the introverted shell I so comfortably hid in, and now I am re-creating an ambiverted/ extroverted new me. I died my hair black, that's cool. I will still be very stressed out this year though, a lot to do ad accomplish, I just pray my nerves don't give out on me again. That was some major pain there. And speaking of pain, I was supposed to go to a doctor to get my bones and joints checked out, I am having some bad pains here and there in my body, but I canceled because I found out diet pop might be to blame for my pain. But the pain is still about. I have had such a ruff time with my sisters lately, they are so inconsiderate and rude, and just not good people period. I can't wait to move out, and I am moving out by October. On a positive note, I am at terms with myself, I am who I am, can't change it, and I won't hate myself (as much) for being who I naturally am. Well that's about it.
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