Sometimes I wonder why every once in a while a person is born with what some people call a "pure heart." I'm one of those unique people.....but....but sometimes I wonder if people like me should ever be born. I mean, sure I'm loved and liked by many of my friends but most of my friends are guys, and most of them love me enough that they want me to be their girlfriend. But I already love two men right now and my heart is being nudged a bit more towards one other individual that I've known ever since I first began to role play when I was younger. I mean I love all my friend but only a few of them are able to give me peace of mind and heart. Only a few of them are ever able to make me happy with their kind words to me, and when they are hurt by something or someone around them I get upset and can feel their pain.
Dustin....Mark...my friend Trunks (not his real name), Iove you three dearly and I want to keep all three of you close to my heart. Two of you I already call my "Guardians" but only one of you isn't. Because you didn't want to feel as if you had to be pushed closer to me because most of the Guardian's that were chosen were those around me who have strong feelings towards me or have a strong loyalty to protect me from whatever may be on my mind. I wish I knew of a way to keep you and everyone else around me happy and safe. Which.....which is reason why at times I wonder why I stay around those who I want to protect. When it seems that me just being alive causes them pain and suffering in the process. ........Should a person with a pure heart like me stay alive no matter what is thrown in front of them? I truely wish I knew the answer to my own question.....because my heart is becoming confused on what it wants to do.
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