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sooooo
i finished Harry Potter number seven in around 10 hours i guess
i should be crying......soooooo depressing, but i am not-probably cuz my eyes havent had enough sleep to have energy to cry.
lol
i have read 3 books full of crack in the last week-i sooo od'd.....and now, rarr-i will have to not read for a while because of it-grr.....oh wellz
comin back to cali tomorrow-do not fret ^_^
byez!
 Dhampiresa_Jenisa · Sun Jul 22, 2007 @ 01:59am · 1 Comments |
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inside and outside
the circles of life spin
they lay upon me
and i feel living
i breathe
and feel another's breath
i wonder
these circular beings
that make me feel
sick but happy
and alive
with another life
safely tucked in
and i see
that the circles of life
attached to me for a reason
unknown for now
but there
and i feel the happiness
and the joy
attached to me
as i hold his hand
and tell him about
the circular beings
who attached to me
for an unknown reason
and i see his face
reflecting my own
all smiles
without a worry
and i know
the baby
will have a
loving
caring
father
unlike his
or mine
we will be happy
together
oh...and i am not pregnant-just felt all motherly today(i only 17-weirdos....and my love is in a different state)
Dhampiresa_Jenisa · Wed Jul 11, 2007 @ 06:14pm · 2 Comments |
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circling, wandering endlessly
never finding myself
you, my life
wasted searching
nothing in the world
could have possibly helped
nobody needed me
i fell out of the social distortion
aimlessly walking
out of the crowd
unfeeling and unremorseful
i forgot my place
trying to be unique
but ended up the same
like everyone else
i was searching
searching for myself
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i left you far away
i need you to be far away
i want you here though
i would bring you here
but sadly, i cannot
you think that i abandoned you
you believe i am okay
yet you have never called
you never say c ya l8tr or bye
just w/e....okay
if i truly abandoned you
why do i feel left out
when i am with my new friends
in my new life here
and not together in their group?
i should have been overwhelmed with love,
however, i am stuck here
in the gloomy abyss of despair
and hatred and longing
i am all alone here, nobody gets me
u came close to once
but that feeling of trust and love between us
dissipated into thin air
like the ice cream you bought me that summer
i trusted you and my inner thoughts
used to circle in my head
never wandering off the path of your image
u'd read me like a book
a 14 size tempus sans font book
that was constantly in front of you
i adored your being
lingered on every word out of your mouth
desperate for more
waiting, oh so patiently for your breathing
to reach my inner ear so i would
be able to breathe again
and if i was thinking of your voice,
i couldn't speak until you did
why did i leave you?
this question haunts me
did i truly abandon you?
will you ever forgive me?
how on earth do i answer these questions
they overwhelm me
and into the darkness and despair i go again
i will never leave this foresaken place
the chains you put around me
pull me back to the wall
i cry and yell, but know
you aren't there to open the lock
i just sit and ponder how things could've been different
if only i hadn't have left
and abandoned you there
so very far away from here and me...
Dhampiresa_Jenisa · Fri Apr 13, 2007 @ 05:35am · 0 Comments |
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Dhampiresa_Jenisa · Wed Apr 04, 2007 @ 08:47am · 0 Comments |
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to all my friends
the ones i care about
who hold my secrets near
who keep my stories
of love and hate
and encounters secretly
i hold you dear to me
and wish it would disappear
this hate
this attitude and negativity
just keep going
on with ur lives
so that i can live
i can keep going
tellin you my secrets
my opinions and the like
and stop the madness
the tears quiver inside me
afraid of ebing let out
and i know whos is true
i kno who is not
so part of me agrees
and part of me does not
my true friends
who are always there
do you truly love me or not?
Dhampiresa_Jenisa · Sun Apr 01, 2007 @ 07:37am · 0 Comments |
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the night i said yes
the night i agreed
u promised it would be
all that id need
to get through the day
and far into the night
so we could see
eachother at first light
i believed it would work
that youd never leave
but i never saw
the way ud deceive
right before my eyes
the problem appeared
no suspecting glances
none that id feared
we went through that night
went through it all
i guess it was good
i really had to fall
just used to the bumper
that kept me safe from harm
the unsuspecting me
without my boy-alarm
Dhampiresa_Jenisa · Sun Apr 01, 2007 @ 06:40am · 0 Comments |
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i said go
i said fall
i didnt mean it
i said leave
i said out
i didnt know
i said hate
i said love
i didnt see
i said remember
i said forget
i was a mystery
i said stay
i said wait
i didnt hear
i said come
i said sit
i didnt notice
i said nothing!
Dhampiresa_Jenisa · Sat Mar 10, 2007 @ 11:27pm · 0 Comments |
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people say i've fallen
that i've fallen in love with you
but those people don't even know
how deep the scars run
how they took so long toheal
how the cut grew worse in my heart
each time i saw you
like salt in a wound
all you did was pour
iw ant to clarify to all
i was fallin, not had fallen
i was fallin in love, but it's okay
now i know why
it was tempting to bein your arms
the love never felt from another
i was fallin in love with you
but you never loved me
at least it's what the others said
the ones you'd rejected because
it was too painful
it was too emotional and close
for you to love them
so now they say i was fallin
i was fallin in love with you
and they recognized how i finally
caught the wind with my wings
and soared across the sky
i embrace my gift
i no longer listen to your voice
calling out my name in a trance
now it's you
you have fallen in love
and im no longer here for you to use
alone in the world, you can catch your wings
but the wind is swift and unrelenting
i dont think you can make it
just prove you're worthless
Dhampiresa_Jenisa · Fri Mar 02, 2007 @ 05:51am · 2 Comments |
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