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You taught me everything I know
So for that, I am thankful.
I suppose.
You were my sensei
My encouragement
My most important person.
Well.
You used to be.
You were one of the Legendary Three
A genius.
You were cold-hearted
Ambitious.
You threw me away
Because I wasn't good enough.
I wasn't capable
Of certain things
You told me I was weak.
You discarded me
Like some worthless object.
But gave me
A token to remember you by.
A curse seal.
How I hate you.
You can't even begin
To comprehend
The pain you put me through.
All of my suffering
Torment
Anguish.
All because of you.

Father,
Why did you kill mother?
We were such a happy family.
Those happy times,
When we were together,
Why did you stain them?
I am sorry I am cursed,
I am sorry mother,
I cannot be a normal kid.
I am sorry father,
I killed you.
I am sorry everyone,
I am useless.
It was snowing,
On that bitter cold night,
Who would care?
For a filthy,
Orphan boy,
Sitting on the streets,
Like me.
My heart was numb,
I cannot think,
I cannot move,
My eyes are shutting,
I think I am dying.
I saw a small figure,
I can hear that footstep.
I force my eyes open,
I saw you,
Standing there,
Staring at me
You look into my eyes,
You knew I am cursed.
I knew you are going to kill me,
Just like what my father almost did,
But you did not.
You carried me,
And held my hand,
That warm hand,
Those caring eyes,
How could I ever forget?
I am glad that you were here,
All this time,
Always by my side,
Therefore,
I am willing to die for you.
Even if we are in heaven or hell,
I knew we would always meet,
And be together,
For eternity

Why uncle, why?
Were you only satisfied if I were to die?
Hated by all, except for you,
Are you saying that wasn’t true?
You hated me, when I loved you.
My life a miserable one, no friends at all,
Would you have loved me if I weren’t so small?
I bet not.
What if I didn’t have this demon in me?
And didn’t take the life of your sister?
It wasn’t my fault!
That one lonely night, I sat teary-eyed,
That was the night when you terribly died.
You confessed your hatred,
I’ll never forgive you,
I want my hatred to you, to go to your grave with you!
I trusted you, you betrayed me,
Did my love mean nothing to you?
I thought it was father,
Who I hated as well,
Now I want both of you,
To go burn in hell!
Why was it only me?
Why not someone else?
To face all these problems,
That I’ve gone through and felt,
I thought we were friends,
But you know what I realize?
Friendships don’t always last,
Until the very end.
I'm all alone...

Angels

Sparkling angel
I believe
You are my saviour
In my time of need

Blinded by faith
I couldn't hear
All the whispers
The warning's so clear

I see the angels
I'll lead them to your door
There is no escape now
Now mercy no more

No remorse 'cause I still remember
The smile when you tore me apart


You took my heart
Deceived me right from the start
You showed me dreams
I wished they'd turn to real
You broke the promise
And made me realise
It was all just a lie

Sparkling angel
Couldn't see
Your dark intensions
Your feelings for me

Fallen angel
Tell me why?
What is the reason?
The thorn in your eye

I see the angels
I'll lead them to your door
There is no escape now
No mercy no more

No remorse 'cause I still remember
The smile when you tore me apart


Could have been forever
Now we have reached the end

This world may have failed you
It doesn't give the reason why
You could have chosen
A different path of life

The smile when you tore me apart


You took my heart
Deceived me right from the start
You showed me dreams
I wished they'd turn in to real
You broke a promise
And made me realise
It was all just a lie

Could have been forever
Now we have reached the end

Stand My Ground

I can see
When you stay low nothing happens
Does it feel right?

Late at night
Things I thought I put behind me
Haunt my mind

I just know there's no escape
Now once it sets its eyes on you
But I won't run,
Have to stare it in the eye


Stand my ground, I won't give in
No more denying, I've got to face it
Won't close my eyes and hide the truth inside
If I don't make it, someone else will
Stand my ground

It's all around
Getting stronger, coming closer
Into my world

I can feel
That it's time for me to face it
Can I take it?

Though this might just be the ending
Of the life I held so dear
But I won't run,
There's no turning back from here


All I know for sure is I'm trying
I will always stand my ground

See Who I Am

Is it true what they say?
Are we too blind to find a way?
Fear of the unknown
Clouds our hearts today.

Come into my world,
See through my eyes.
Try to understand,
Don't want to lose what we have.

We've been dreaming
But who can deny?
It's the best way of living
Between the truth and the lies.


See who I am,
Break through the surface.
Reach for my hand,
Let's show them that we can
Free our minds and find a way.
The world is in our hands,
This is not the end.

Fear is withering the soul
At the point of no return.
We must be the change we wish to see.

I'll come into your world,
See through your eyes.
I'll try to understand,
Before we lose what we have.

We just can't stop believing
Because we have to try.
We can rise above their truth and their lies.


See who I am,
Break through the surface.
Reach for my hand,
Let's show them that we can
Free our minds and find a way.
The world is in our hands.

This is not the end.

I hear their silence
Preaching my blame.
Will our strength remain
If their power reigns?


See who I am,
Break through the surface.
Reach for my hand,
And show them that we can
Free our minds and find a way.
The world is in our hands.

This is not the end

"Some Day"




Someday, when I'm older

And they never know my name

Somehow, if I'm honest

I can never feel ashamed

Maybe I was wrong to

Hold you up so high

Now I know I've lost you

To the feelings I kept inside




I don't know if it felt like

I wanted you here, the way that I wanted you last time

We're not on the same page, you don't even know me

Cause you never took the time




Someday, when it's over

And you never show your face

I hope you'll remember

How I tried to make you a place

And so now, I move on

To keep my piece of mind

In someway, I've failed you

But I just ran out of time




I don't know if it felt like

I wanted you here, the way that I wanted you last time

We're not on the same page, you don't even know me

Cause you never took the time




I'm not sure that you hear me

I'm not sure that you look at me the same

I will always be attached to you

But I'm never gonna feel the same




I don't know if it felt like

I wanted you here, the way that I wanted you last time

We're not on the same page, you don't even know me

Cause you never took the time

No, you never took the time




Someday, when I'm older...

Is it still me that makes you sweat?

Am I who you think about in bed?

When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?

Then think of what you did

And how I hope to God he was worth it.

When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch his skin.

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better ********

Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me

Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of

Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?

No, no, no, you know it will always just be me




Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?




So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus

In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off?

(Let's pick up, pick up)




Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part

Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.

I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.

Now let's not get selfish

Did you really think I’d let you kill this chorus?




Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?




Dance to this beat

Dance to this beat

Dance to this beat




Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster




I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better ********

Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me

Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of

Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?

No, no, no, you know it will always just be me




Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?




So testosterone boys and harlequin girls

Dance to this beat

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls

Dance to this beat

And hold a lover close

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster



love that song

Tell all the dreams that you have
let slip right through your hands
Do you feel lost inside
of someone else's life

And we're not gonna live forever
Can you tell me is it now or never
I'm not gonna make up your mind

I don't wanna live without you
And I don't wanna live a lie
We'll never know till we try
Yeah we'll never know till we try

Failure is the only way
to learn till you've come undone
the rest will never find out
what they might have been

And we're not gonna live forever
Can you tell me is it now or never
I'm not gonna make up your mind

I don't wanna live without you
And I don't wanna live a lie
We'll never know till we try
Yeah we'll never know till we try

So don't tell me sometime
just where did we go wrong, yeah

And we're not gonna live forever
Can you tell me is it now or never
I'm not gonna make up your mind

I don't wanna live without you
And I don't wanna live a lie
We'll never know till we try
Yeah we'll never know till we try