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I am Brenda and I am from Pickering High school. But this time I am in the 11 grade. Not in 10th grade anymore...wow it has been awhile since I posted anything about my school and myself.

I've got a group of friends called the JB and ME and i love them so much.

I love books and I love spending time reading my vampire novels for hours on end or I'll read my 130 mangasa nd even watch my anime.

Hello everyone! how are you guys doing. I doubt anyone will check this. Well, whatever. lol. I'll just have to talk to myself....or not. I'm going to Quizilla.com now because it's boring here, at the moment. I'm under the name of bloodyredwater. look me up. lol. bye.

I am Brenda and I am from Pickering High school. But this time I am in the 10 grade. Not in 8th grade anymore...wow it has been awhile since I posted anything about my school and myself.

Okay all I really need to say is that there is tooo much drama in my school.

My dearest friends switched schools. I'll miss them so freaking much!

My writing is going oh so slowly. I wonder if I ever said that I rewrote my hole story. Well, now you ghuys know, I did.

My manga collection that barly exsited(sp?) in the 8th grade is now up to about 110 in mangas and I'll be getting another 10 or so in the next few days.

my drawings have gotten better since 8th grade and I think I've changed a lot. I used to carry my bad streak on the outside, now I have had to push it inside...I don't think it was the best thing to do. every so often I feel as if I am my character herself. because she gets points of madness that aren't pleasent.... My moments hurt me so because I have to watch how I act to my friends and what I say, not to mention I have to ignor what they say cause I'm scarred I'm going to slap them or insult them.... sometimes its a slap in the face a person needs to open their eyes, but I get points where death feels closer then ever. I wish I wouldn't get this way, but that's me....

I guess I'll post something up before my next birthday. lol, I'll talk to you guys later

-Bee-

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hello everyone! I'm sorry I've been so busy. Let me tell you what has been going on in my life. I'm still writing my story and I'm still drawing away. I have a deviantart account. I am bloodyredwater. Oh! and I am doing a drawing ring on deviantart. so if you want to go on, then be my guest and request. not here but there. I'm drinking a coke right now and I am bord!!

HAPPY THANKS GIVING TO ALL THAT READ THIS!!!lo

hey everyone. I've been on Deviantart.com and xanga.com so much I've almost forgotten about this site. Thank you for all the people that haven't forgotten about me. On deviantart.com if you want to see my account than go to bloodyredwater's page. Same for if you want to see my xanga.com account. Go to bloodyredwater's account. Have fun.

I'm doing good. I'm still taking a ton of quizes, typing a lot, thinking on silly things that are confusing even smart people and yet thgey themselves question my words, and I still am dealing with the drama of school.

To all, my birthday is tomorrow...October 18. I'm so happy!!! YEAH! Only certain peopel are oblagated (sp?) to say/ do anything for my birthday, everyone else can just continue their day with one less trouble.

Hey,
I haven't been on in a while and I would like it if all my friends would drop by and say hi to me if they are ever on. with tha out of the way. I'll try to spend more time on here. but I get bord easily and I can never seem to stick to a topic when RPing... so I have no clue what I wil be doing on here...

any sugestions?

(still writting)

my birth day is today...

I should feel happy for being a year older, but I'm a little saddened...
The Future is coming faster then I ever thought it could...
My memories blind me, hiding me from the truth ahead...
That everything will not be so happy when I'm older...
then when I was with my friends in the past....
I fear what lies in the future instead of what is ahead of me now...
I don't know weather I should be happy or serious anymore...

I feel odd inside...
like something wants to get free but something else is holding it back...
like the feel me wants to scream and yet something is blocking my voice...

what is going on...
my head spins with images I seek to be rid of...
saddeness, pain, loneliness, anger, hatered, and fear...
times I wish to forget and can't...

I guess because they also show me...
light, joy, happiness, and a feeling of place when I feel lost...


I feel better to write this down...
I'll be back some other time to write another pointless thought in my life...