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i was reading through old comments and i realized that i was alot closer to my friends then than i am now and that's depressing because i really only had one reason for gaia and that was my friends but my friends have left me and know i only get on to piss people off so now not only am i depressed but hated also.

I had a dream that scared me once because in it i killed my friends and this was what happened.

I was just going to school like any other day but instead of having control of my body i could only see through my eye's while my body acted on it's own and when i got to school i walked up to the only person who trusted me and when she turned around and greeted my i pulled a switchblade out of my pocket and slit her throat right in the middle of a crowded hallway.When people started noticeing she was dead they began the scream and scatter but after that started happening i just started chasing them down one-by-one and it didn't matter who i got teacher or student they would die and during my homocidal rampage i killed the rest of my friends the same way i killed HER but about three minutes in the police arrived and started getting people out but that did not sit well with whatever was controlling my body because it started chasing down officers and killing them but about three officers later they got smart and waited for me on a staircase and used another cop to draw me out.My body got the cop drew me out but two feet off the stairs so when my body was about to kill the officer that got caught my body got hammered by a tourent of bullets and my body was killed.with my body killed and my soul free of whatever was controlling me i was able to see all the people my body had killed and they all looked at me with disgust but what hurt me was the look SHE gave me because it was far beyond disgust and hurt but then she just points at me and two reapers grab my arms and drag me away.
That's when i woke up...screaming. that dream still scares me when i think about it.