I'm feeling really down today. Its become a habit, feeling down, feeling bad for myself. I'm considering going back on medication, because I can't afford to get worse.
Seeing Andi is kind of hard, at least on the inside. On the outside, I don't let it show. I'm her freind, and thats all. But on the inside, I'm really torn up, like someones taken a lawnmowwer and just run it up and down my body until nothing is left but the splattered peices of my remains. I don't know how I survive it.. I guess I'm just a masochist..
Talked to Desiree recently. She's doing good for herself, wherever she is, and I'm glad. I miss her more than I can really admit to myself. I might get the chance to see her over the summer... but I'm not getting my hopes up.
Getting a little better at drawing. Progress is slow, but I'm learning, and I'm sticking with it. Its good for me, to stick with something.
Anyway, enough gushing for tonight. I should head off to bed. Goodnight.
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