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Wow....

sweatdrop This journal entry started one way and I had to redo it for my extreme mood change gonk

I went from content, to depressed, to pissed, and now...I'm happy. Yea, you heard me right....I'm happy.

Josh...he speaks to me again O_o I'm confused and startled....

So very confused now....like...lost...

I dunno. I mean...he acted like he hated me and he doesn't. I wish he'd make up his mind....I want him to tell me how he honestly feels bout me.

'cause I wont' lie...I know all the people I care about are reading this now..I know all of you will be mad at me...but...its just how I feel....see...

I love Josh. I still do. I can't get over him no matter how hard I try to. I care about him. I think abotu him all the time. Josh or some reminence of him is always in my dreams. I just...I can't help myself. he's like a drug and I'm one hell of an adict...

...Josh made my depression go away today. I was cutting and crying and Josh...eh...see

At first he was a d**k to me, he said I was obsessed and I got pissed the ******** off. I aint obessed with nothin.... sweatdrop except Ronin Warriors, 3nodding and that is a healthy obsession xd Anyway, he said that so I got mad. I said I hated him and I wanted him to leave me alone and then I said "******** you Josh".....and he said where, how hard and how long and I couldn't help but laugh. Like outloud xd Just in the context of how he said it made me feel all happy inside for some reason...and then everything leveled off from there.

I'm happy now. I'm giddy and girlie and everything feels ok in my heart. Thank you for that, Josh.

I gotta go, now. Mom will yell at me if I'm on the net after 11 or teh phone or watch TV...she thinks I sleep to much in the day. Anyway whee g2g~Ciao heart