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My brain makes words.
If I need to talk but have no one to talk to or I feel I need to write through my problems, it goes here. I do not use names. If I do, it's because I either have no respect for the person, or I accidentally slipped.
And Zoloft takes its toll.
Ive desided today that Zoloft depresses me. It works though, because though I am depressed, I don't care that I am. It's a little hard to explain. It makes me sleepy though. I'm sposed to be doing my homework right now so this will be short.

So today was another odd day, but in the opposite way of yesterday. Today I did not forget my pill, so I was not as hyper. Maybe thats a good thing, as I get annoying when I get hyper. Anyway, I found out the name of the nice guy person and he invited me to go with him somewhere after school. That would've been great, except that my mom thinks that all guys she doesn't know just want to rape me. She said I could only go if I took one of my friends along. As my luck would have it, I could find neither the friend that was supposed to go with me or the guy who was sposed to take us. That's not a completely bad thing.

I was walking to the flagpole to try to find them when I felt like I was being followed, so I turned around. Who is behind me, but my still ever present He. I stopped to see if he really was trying to get to me and he was. He hugged me at lunch today, the first time because I asked him to (I knew I shouldn't, but I couldn't help myself) and the second time on his own. I decided to be sarcastic, I couldn't help it. I asked him if he was going to tel his mom and have me sent to the dean again. I guess he didn't take it the light way I meant it. We talked for a little. He grabbed me by the arms and told me he cared about me, but he was sort of shaking me. I guess it was to get his point across or intensify it or something. His voice shook. Maybe he was sad too.

The rest of the day was uneventful. I came home, ate some tacos, slept till 8, which is when I began to type this. Ok, so this entry wasn't SHORT, but it wasn't too long.






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Teki
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commentCommented on: Fri Oct 15, 2004 @ 05:09am
hey rika, i love you much so i dont trust him. My mom tried to tell me he had a point because shes one of those see both sides people...i yelled at her redface but thats just me. but i also know you dont wanna hear this becuz your brains confused I know the feeling i hope you will try to move past him and dont let him crawl back but thats just me love you *huggles*


commentCommented on: Fri Oct 15, 2004 @ 05:13am
Yeah, you're probably right, but I can't help it. I knew when we decided not to see or speak to each other again that if he came up and started saying those pretty words he says I was gonna feel those feelings again. rawr....bleh. What did your mom say he had a point about? And I love ya to pieces too.



Zantiga
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