Jumi said he'd be on at 3:00 my time 'cause he has other stuff to do today...he said h can't stay long...just wanted to talk to me or something....
I wonder whats wrong with me today...
I'm not depressed or tiered or irritated...I just, am here. Just existing. Nothing more. I lost what made me human...
Travis. Teh. I am done with him. I am no longer concidering him a friend or even an associate. I hope his parents make him move to the other side of the world and I hope I never have to see him again. I hate him for going back on what he said and how he still treats me after promising he wouldn't be like this anymore. I see why everyone is mean to him. I hope he suffers and s**t...I hope next year he isn't in my school anymore. I hope he's far, far, away where he deserves to be...cold, and alone.
I don't...think I have ever...meant it when I said that regarding anyone. But I mean it in regards to him. I hope the selfish little b*****d suffers so much. I just...I hate him. Not an all out hate, more of a reserved hate.
Isaac hurt my feelings last night...he hurt me real bad, and I went to sleep crying. I wish he wouldnt' say the things he does...I hate this sitation he's in and how ******** up everything has become...
I am offically no longer Kevins friend. I think I'm not alteast. Little ******** ignored me all day yesterday when I was askign him a very important question and his refusal to answer it and also when he suddenly left encouraged me to wonder very bad things.
Today has...been a very bad day. But for some reason...it doesnt' depress me. I don't care about anything anymore...and taht really scares me.
I quit RO. I'm always so lonely there...I'm not really in the mood to make new friends or go through the "acceptance" stage again....I don't want to quit...but I just...don't have any reason to play anymore. ...I duno. I'ma see how double xp event goes for me to decide if I will really quit. If I'm not a dancer by the time the weekends up I quit for a long time...like 6months to a year. Lets see....xp even starts at 11am in pacific timezone...so thats like 1 or 2pm for me, right? I'm not to good at time conversions.
Jumi messaged me, gotta go.
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