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I couldn't focus in school today for some reason. I guess its 'cause its the end of the year, last full month of school, and so I'm starting to get lazy. sad I got lots of homework, I don't feel like doing it though. Strange, 'cause its not like I feel like doing anything else either.

Sometimes its like I take school so seriously, and other times I feel like I'm just there for the reason everyone else is--'cause we have to, and to goof off. Next year I can't schedule classes with my friends sweatdrop They're way to distracting for me and my ADD. xd

They'res some track meet school-wide thing today my brother wants me to go to...I was gunna go, even though I'd miss WOE by doing so...but...I mean, I dunno. I really look forward to WOE, so sorry to disappoint that strange person who left that weird comment O.o, but my IRL is more important.

Just now school is lagging and the game is far more intersting than the world I live in. If my family wasn't so poor I'd be going to the movies, and skating, hell...even to the park. But moms excuse for me not to go is that the gas prices are to high, the movis to expensive, I need new skates so she can't buy those, and the park is to dangerous of a walk for me to go sad I'd go aganist my mothers wishs, but she is right...

Greg called, he got so mad at me for some reason. I dunno, I guess he was high or something. He just started yelling and cussing me out for nothin, so of course I cuss back because at the time I was angry about something. I hung up, and again, told him never to call me back. ... He called twice yesterday, once today. Boys can't take hints, or the full blown truth at all.

..um, anyway, back to the track thing with my brother...he skipped school today, so he's not going to it. Its the "Red Devils Relay" thing. I guess it woulda been fun to go.

My brothers best friend has an older brother named Josh who I used to hang with all the time last year. He came over last week to talk to me about his girlfriend cheating on him then he broke up with her. I was all pitiful for him as he sat in my room and told me abotu what he did for the girl and how she used him. The girl he dated was black, he said he's dating this white girl who rides my bus now. He says his curent girl makes him feel more loved and wanted and stuff than the last girl did, and she's a virgin so...heh, sweatdrop So yea. 3nodding I wa slistening to his story and then he asked me about Greg. So I told 'em I broke up with him, and that was all. He pryed to know why and stuff so I said he cheated on me. Then Josh got all pitiful on me and was like "aww I'm so sorry to hear that", I said whatever cause Greg was nothin to be pressed over anyway. So then Josh saiid, "I know you hurt alot Courtney, so I came here today to tell you about how if you let God into your life, you will feel alot better about your life." My brain just stopped, and I gave him the most disgusted look I have ever given someone xd My brother said it was the "ghetto" comming outta me 3nodding He sat there and made me be slow to respond to someone I cared about, so he could try to sucker me into going to chruch. I ******** hate the Church he and my family go to, I hate it with a passion. Its like they're trying to get everyone who lives in my projectts to attend it....I think its a cult trying to exterminate us poor minorities 3nodding ...I don't literally think that, its a joke...

I hate religion. I told Josh no, and laughed at his pathetic attempt to try to win me over with his stories as I retorted with scientific evidence which proved him wrong. He asked if I knew where my soul would go, I said that anything was possible maybe a soul didn't even exist. I shot down every attempt he made to con me into going. Laughing seemed to piss him off, but I honestly couldn't help myself. I can't believe that church would force my own ******** friend to try and recruit me after I keep telling them NO...so now, I lost a friend because of ******** religion. stare

Eh...you win some and you lose some, though.

The days feel like they're going slower...I hate this. sad I thought junior and senior year was suppose to go by fast--thats what all the older kids said, like the seniors of last year. They'd always tease us in a playful way and say to cherish our sophmore and freshmen year because it would go by fast and soon I'd be graduating. Then again, I think the councler made them say that 'cause of the alarming rate of drop outs in my school district. 3nodding

This person on YIM named hie1201 is tryin to tell me my dad didn't ******** me up when I was little. How the hell is someone from India going to tell me what did and didnt' happen to me?! sweatdrop Weirdness...to many people from India are on YIM...it scares me. sad

I'm kinda tiered...I need a hug right now. :;sigh:: I feel lonely again for some reason. Kinda empty inside. I'm not depressed, I can still smile and stuff whee Just...my body seems to be aching so badly for some weird reason. sad Guess I should just sleep on it.

OMG! On RO in the guild I'm in, VX, the oldest person in the guild is 32! And she has a 9 year old daughter! Aint that awesome?! biggrin I hope I'm still playin RPG's and stuff after I have a career and kids~! ...and a man, wink I wanna live with a guy just to see what its like 3nodding I bet its weird...

I went to sleep 1/2hour earlier last night...why am I so tiered right now? sad

Can't even nap...gotta make mom bring my food later 3nodding I can't eat during WOE...man, Wednesday is so my fave day of the week. wink heart

I can't think of anything more to type... sweatdrop Just got home from school...need snack 3nodding