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Well...The day after tomorrow my aunt goes in for surgery and then I can only hope to still have a life...If I am going to do anything I'd have to do it tomorrow...But I haven't made plans,I am hating myself right now...I should have tried to make some sort of plans...And my love listed in my last entry(Misha)I already don't see her much...But after this,trying to see her is like going to be as hard as the paper work to become an American citizen from Iraq at the moment.But soon school will start and all I can do is hope we either share a class or two,or we have the same lunch...But then it still will be hard to spend time with her...And that is going to rip me apart inside,I love her more than anyone could imagine...And that's why I dred these next few days...All I can do is hope my aunt:A)Survives,B)heals faster than normal,or C)stops being over protective.May the time I do spend with Misha have meaning or I fear something may go wrong...And I think that would just kill me...Well I guess that's all for now but I just can't break this feeling of sadness,like a knife in my soul tearing deeper and deeper until I break down inside and die of emotion.I fear what may come of this and hope for the best...But hopes can only take you so far. emo
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