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I know I know... I haven't posted on my journal for a while...(( lol It's like I'm talking to myself?)) xd
Well mainly, right now, ... Well I'm... I'm... ((here we go again rolleyes )) I'm... BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No! I'm not hyper... I'm bored... & it's SUCKS!!!
There's nothing to do, None of my friends are online, I'm done with my home work... I don't feel like listening to music, & I don't feel like drawing!!!!!!!
THIS IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Ok I'm calm now... Hee hee... I bet, that who ever you are that is reading this... Is getting... Wait no, is finding this either: Very amusing ((because your still reading)), Or very bored but is still finding this amusing ((because you STILL reading it!)).
Isn't that funny, yes, cool! Yay I'm happy now, ... But still bored...................................................................................................................
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You know... I like to play the piano, but I hate when people beg me to play it... At school stare ... I don't beg for the attention, they bring it to me....
I hate it though, I'm not THAT good.
Just like, today... I can't believe I said it but...
I said that my step dad slapped me when I was younger... ((abusive dad))
It was hard... emo
But I did it.
Your probably like, "what's so hard about it?"
Well, I hate talking about my past because people feel sympathy for me...
((wow I change the subject SO fast!))
I was shaking too when I said it, yes, yes. I was scared. Those were bad times... The memories are painful but I try to avoid them...
But some how they find a way in...
I don't like to show the sadness dwelling deep inside me....
That's why I smile all the time...
I'm hiding it.
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But I'll keep smiling! smile