Okkkk. Me & Him I geuss we are doing great. I can't say we are & I can't say we ain't because well he hasn't been on. I'm scared. He hurt me. I don't want him to do it again. If he does.... Let's just say I won't post another journal entry. I love him sooooo much. crying I'm afraid to get hurt. We had some great times before. We were extremely close. I wish we could get a bit more closer. Every single time I think of before I start to cry. I want us to be the way we were all over again. "yesterday i talk to my wounderfull girl that i met on here for like two hours. it love her so much and even know we live miles apart i still love and i that she loves me. she is smart and kind and fun to talk to i cant wait to meet her it is so exciteing. well i love you lisa and i miss u with all my heart. heartheart" Wasn't that sweet? It was a long time ago... Before Ryu cheated on me. God, I remeber that... I almost ended up in the hospital... Tragic, really.... && I remember I was pissed off at him for what seemed like ever. And then whenever I seen that he was happy with Wonny. I couldn't stand it. I cried for months. Until,,,, he got on one day. I kept my cool. I didn't let nothing get to me (almost a year later). Until he said "Wonny left me for some punk." Here was my chance... My boyfriend ,Matt, just broke up with me. We started talking && A few minutes later we are dating again. I'm happy.... Until I think of what happened before. Could I trust him? What if it happened again? What would happen to me? Would I survive the next time? He keeps telling me he isn't going to cheat again. But I looked on his youtube video and some other things. He has cheated on a lot of girls. But if he cheats on me again. Well one of us might not survive. But wish me luck. That this relationship will last. heartcryingheartcrying