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i just cant do it! i mean how the hell does she do it just like bam?! one minute shes alone and the next there are people surrounding her and she is laughing and having fun...shes cute yes...she looks innocent and easy to talk to...hmmm...if i was like that...but how? i could dress like a cute younger girl maybe...maybe i should look more innocent? damn...no i dont like to change so people like me more...well what if i had a car and could drive! yeah then people would think i was all cool and they would...no they would use me *sigh* everything i think of is flawed...even the simple things like smile and say hi to people...i do that and they look at me weird and say hi then ignore me from then on. yeah thats what happens. i could complement people more...but then that never gets anyone anywhere *sigh* they would think i was creepy cause thats just how i am...but damn it i want friends! friends i can hang out with and do stupid s**t with! im so damn ******** it im just going to go play with my imaginary friends and my dolls now...oh wait i have no dolls...fine! i will go buy some ******** dolls to play with! *flips off everyone* ******** you and you and you! *sigh* i love you so damn much...all of you