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So much has gone on this year. So many things gone wrong and so many changes made. My life, I don't even recognize anymore. I won't bore anyone with the details of all that has gone on since it is the past now. Today is October 15th, 4 days away from my first trip to Maryland to go look at houses and apartments I will eventualy be moving into later on this year if all goes well. (Heh, if all goes well isn't that an oxymoron for me anymore) I'm making this trip so I know what I will be getting myself into instead of just blindly moving into a place that I've only seen pictures of. 4 days away...I've never been so nervous and scared before. Not because of new surroundings and such but more of old memories that haunt me still. It's really odd how things worked out originaly I would have made my first trip to Maryland on my birthday to meet up with a person but those plans have all but died and gone away and yet here I am finding myself 4 days away from my trip there and only 8 days away from my birthday. I've only let a handful of people know about my trip while keeping others in the dark about it so I can avoid any unneeded crap from people. Since no one visits my profile I figure it's safe for me to post it here. I guess I just wanted to get it out some place where I can see it. I don't know I guess if i can see it then I know it's all really happening and not just some dream...or nightmare.




Azazel