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Here lately ever since Pika passed, Pops has been down and depressed to all hell. He says he's not going to be around much longer either. I don't know what I'm going to do.... I've been trying to stay straight in my head..... I've been kind of slipping away very slowly since
pika's death, but luckily some one very special to me was there for me. I appreciate her being there for me, not only at that time but in general. God, I love her so much.... I really wish I could be that special some one for her. I'd do anything, give anything, for her. She's the one and only one that's made me feel happy.... We'd be happy together.... I hate it how people use her like some kind of tool... I wish everyone would see her for what she is, not a tool. She's a very caring person of which whom I love, but she's a human being, not an ITEM. I've been trying to figure out a way to berid of two things within myself, aka some things that are mentally harming me.. But those might never go away. I'd love to be with that special some one. I'd love to marry her and start a life with her. In due time though. Nothing too fast. I've also been spitting up blood here and there when my pain gets bad. I'm still unsure as to what's wrong. I'm getting kind of worried about what's happening but you know....it doesn't matter when I'm with her, so that's good, right? I just want one thing. That thing is to be with her. That's it. Nothing more. I guess I should end it here. Heaven is Love. Peace.


May the Gods bless you all with great fortune.

Love,
Shadow.